Dear cB Diary,, Createblog Diary no. 10 Options

[HakunaMatata]

Dear cB Diary,

After watching Spider Man 3 last night, I feel better about my eye bags.

And I demand that I get at least two dollars back from my ticket after watching the hottest guy of the movie die. SRSLY.
Love,

Kayceeee

[voguelove]

dear cb-
im so scared. today, i shoplifted for the first time since i was 4. and..i got caught. i felt so high and happy that i had to go back into macys for the second time and take something else. tahts when i got caught. i was questioned for a little bit more than an hour, and i just couldnt do anything. i kept saying, "it isnt me, it isnt me," or, "this is my first time." and they didnt believe me. it figures, they probably deal with shoplifters every 2 hours. and now, i have to go to court and get my punishment. one of my best friends is now..an ex friend. her parents wont let me talk to her or see her..or do anything. well, i guess its understandable. and she wrote me this horrible note on myspace:
I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON'T EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN I CAN'T BELEIVE YOU WOULD LIE TO ME AND STEAL THAT STUFF MY PARENTS SAID I COULDN'T HANG OUT WITH YOU ANYMORE AND EVEN IF I WAS ALOUD TO I WOULDN'T! SO DON'T CALL ME, SEND A MESSAGE ON MYSPACE OR EVEN SAY HI TO ME WHEN I WALK PAST YOUR HOUSE BECAUSE I NEVER WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH YOU EVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!

~evan~

it just upsets me so much. how can i get pounded on so hard for doing something once. how can she say that she hates me? we've been friends for 7 years..and this is now the end?
i dont know what to do with my life. i'd cry, but my head already hurts from it. it upsets me so much that everyone is getting away with it..and here comes me, the girl who doesnt shoplift at all and gets caught on the first actual try.

i havent told my dad either. hes coming home in 30 minutes and i dont know what to say to him. how am i suppose to tell him that we need to go to court? that his 17 year old daughter did something like this? he's not going to forgive me this time, and i know i may sound selfish..but this is my last "free" summer before i'm done with high school. but, hopefully..when he finds out that i told him, and not a court hearing letter..he'll let me make my decisions. of course, ill punish myself. and i wont take it easy either. im going to tell him that ill go to work with him on weekends when school starts back up again and work for him. and everyday in the summer, too. well, after i take my sat. he's just..going to be so disappointed in me. and i cant cry this time. i need to just tough it out until im done with my court punishments. i know im rambling, and i know i probably shouldnt post this on the internet..but i need to. people just need to forgive me. and i need to forget.