I did the big NO NO... Options

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I met this guy ( lets call him Josh) about five years ago online, we became friends throughout that time. We finally get together and meet in person last year. I went to go visit him, he lives about four hours away from me. I come home after the visit and he doesnt have five minutes out of his day to talk to me. I always answer his calls night or day and yet he wont give me the same. I would talk to his roommates about our situation and what was going on. To make things short , I end up dating both of his roommates , not because of what he did to me, but maybe they had the five minutes that he didnt have. Josh and I have been recently talking again and he got a cellphone to call me. I have this guilt in me about dating his roommates, I don't know if I should tell him about what happened. It's killing me, I am always open with him, but with this situation I am hurting. We were broken up when this happend too, with the roommates, if that even matters. I don't know what to do, what do I do???

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I guess they knew I was hurting about Josh and maybe they said the things I wanted to hear. I find out later that he was dating this girl, while i was dating him.

The other roommate, I he told me about the other roommate^^^up there...they are best buds. the roommates i cheated with. I stopped dating the second one, this one cause he was in the military and he came for 2 wks home. and I went to see him, then i ended it w/ him. I don't want to hurt him and find someone while hes over there and still be w/ him. so i ended it w/ him.

They both don't know I still talk to Josh.