he wants to break up with me, I just can't let go.. Options

[islandkiss]

I don't know where to put this.. I don't know what to think

my "bf" wants to break up with me. he told me he sort of wanted to b/c our relationship is seriously sad. but he's unsure.. I'm always telling him that I can't let go. I really love him. he's my first bf and we've been going out for a year already. I really, really can't let go. I just wish I was dead. what should I do? I just feel so torn and screwed up. I've been thinking a lot about cutting myself. argh.. help..

[conster]

#1 dont suicide, i dont care how much u love him but its not worth it ok??!?! heh.. i felt like that like a month ago.. and i kno how u feel, i probably didnt love my ex like u love ur bf rite now.. but u gotta get through it... in a relationship its not all about you and its not all about him rite?wen u guys argue, both of u have to do it together to get through it, u guys share the bond between u guys, so.. if he wants to break up, u have to respect his decision... its gonna be hard to live without him being with u, but u kno wut? u cant show him ur weakness, the more u show him ur weakness, he'll jus take advantage of it.. and plus u wouldnt wanna be wit someone who dont feel the same way like before..