What would you do?, Cannabis V.S. Ant-Depressants Options

[turntabletux]

1st off, I don't need health freaks tell me how bad cannabis is and whatnot..I know the facts! 2nd, I'd like to hear from the people that are or have taken anti-depressants.


All my life I've had issues. I've had a shitty childhood, school days, hell I had a shitty birth. I was diagnosed with both manic and bipolar depression when I was in middle school. I don't need to go on, because that's not the point, I always say someone else out there has it off worse than me.

Anyways I've been through 5 or 6 anti-depressants and 2 sleep aids. I finally started smoking cannabis in high school, about junior year. I like cannabis 1,000 times more than popping pills. When I took the pills I felt fake all the time. I felt like everything was forced, and my days would rely on if I took a little yellow, white or whatever color pill. Half the time I felt worse than if I didn't take the pills, just because I felt fake happy, the pills are making me smile.

I've been smoking cannabis everyday all day for the past 3 months, and it's been the best 3 months of my life. I've found out what I want to do with my life, overall I've learned more about myself. I started doing my homework, and better in school all together. It also helps me sleep really well.

As much as I love marijuana, I am not stupid. I'm always tired from coming down, takes a lot of money, and it makes me stupid. It doesn't lower my IQ or anything, but once in a while I'll just say something so stupid. Like repeat something someone just said to me. And it puts me in bad positions, for example; I wake and bake and my brother calls me for a ride because he's sick. I just don't want to be an unreliable person.

So if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Would you give the pills another shot. I know a lot of people on CB are against marijuana. Thanks for reading my novel!

[elaboratedream]

first off, if you're bipolar, they shouldn't have you on anti-depressants in the first place... you should be on mood stabilizers.

I'm bipolar and I know how horrible meds can be. They got rid of my hypomania and in doing so got rid of my personality.

You'd be surprised how common it is for people with bipolar to resort to drugs and alcohol as a form of self-medication. I admit, I'm one of those people.

I find that cannabis can in fact help me be more stable (in addition to being hella fun), however, daily use is getting a bit excessive.
try to limit yourself to some extent and work on managing your moods without it.