My Love Story. Options

[Blueiyzboy]

Here is my love story...

I didint know at my age, I can feel love...I thought that was something when your older. I guess I was wrong. One day can change your life forever. Seeing her for the first time. Then falling in love. From that day on, you know noone else is for you excpet for that person. All the memories you shared. Every time you look at her, and you think to your self how beutifull she is and how special, how she means the world to you. All the Memories. That first kiss when you were so afraid, but when it finally happened you felt so much joy that you were spechless. The good times that you thought were never going to end. In your eyes she is perfect. I was only 13 when I fell in love for the very first time. One day, she was a friend of my friends and thats how we met. That day I saw her I knew she was mine and I felt something deep down inside. I asked her out and everything went well. So many good times. Are first hug, first kiss, staying on the phone untill are parents yelled at us to get off..and then always ending with "I love you". Sneeking and staying out on her drive way just sitting there talking. Even though u know when you get home your going to be in trouble. laying on a trampline looking at the stars. Never wanting the night to end. Her eyes, with so much hope and happiness...beutifull. The only one you will ever love. Then one day....there gone. The one you love gone ripped your heart out to leave u there in pain. Gone forever. She was everything u ever wanted everything u ever had. Your FIRST love. Gone. All I can do is watch her and know deep inside. thats all youll ever be from now on is friends. Forever just friends. eight months have passed you still feel the same pain you felt that very pain. You cant move on even though you have tried so hard Even when you heart is telling u the truth. Go home and cry every night. Drop down on your knees and stay there all night laying on the floor...hopping the next day will be different. Then the day came, when she goes into someone elses arms. Another guy, who has takin the one I love. Who dosint deserve her...shes to special for another guy to have. Inside I feel like all the memories we shared are going to be lost forever in her mind....and replaced by the new guy she loves. What do I do? A boy, a girl, I love her......and she wont love me ever agin. Today I thoight about the first tine she said I love you. We went out for a second time, and we got off the phone and I heard a light voice say "I love you". Then today I thought she will never say it again.

*Then*
We broke up half way thru that. I wen't out with this girl named Christina for 2 months. She treated me so well, it was perfect. Then Girl above calls me, and wants to go out. I ruin somehting perfect with Christina to go out with her. I will never forgive my self.

I was looking at all the topics in here, I am sorry but they sound fake. I mean "Should I ask Him/her" I love You... and stuff. I think if you have the guts to say " I LOVE YOU" to a girl you will love them forever. No matter what happens, I just think the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing is overrated now. I am 15. Where is it going to go? We are not going to get married and stuff... I cant drive. Parents drive. It is something that is better to be held off after college. If you really think about it. Grades drop for the most part, and nothing good comes out of it except saying " I have a companion" and maybe getting a little action? Maybe I am crazy> No? Worry about your childhood and getting dirty and playing kickball. Dont worry about the "deprresed" stage and stuff like that. It aint anything special. Dont be fake, and follow the crowd.

[Blueiyzboy]

ur story sounds a lot.. almost exactly like mine.. except i was the one you'd see running into someone elses arms. me & jonathan got together when i was 13.. first hug, first kiss.. it was perfect for a year. then i destroyed it.

me n jonathan r still really good friends.. thru the bad times we've made it through. but it'll never be the same as it was when i was 13 & we were sitting at the rink where we had our first kiss.. or when we were walkin around the mall n i was thinkin "this is perfect".. but we all make mistakes.. & sometimes ((this is gonna sound cheesy but hey)) things happen that change your whole perspective for a reason.. people dont just walk outta ur life for no reason. its better for the future. cuz look back.. didnt you learn something? you wont make the same mistake again.. and like i said earlier we all make mistakes.. its what you do with what you learn from them that counts...

I know.

Me and Her are not frienda anymore, we have tried to work on things as friends. She rubs other guys in my face, and makes me feel bad. We always fight, she hits me..and I stand there and take it. Recently I told her that Iam not going to be walked on and I said I am "walking out" I did so much for her...that it didint count.

Flowers, Roses on V-Day
Random Gifts....
Cute Notes.
Writing 300 notes and putting them in lockers to get her voted for class president.
Holding her in a special way.
Walking her 4 miles home. Far from my house.
Etc... and the time was wasted.

Heart Broken by my first love. I expected it to come.