friend who acts, different now ... Options

[demolished]

Recently, I had been feeling annoyed, irritated, and angered to a great friend of mine. Dude, there is something screwing up my mind. Last year, we would act stupid, act retarded, do stupid things, and act immature little brat. I had a lot of fun and enjoyed the lamest thing ever. My friend was a huge influence in me … like, extremely huge and made a part of me. Unlike this year, everything is just too different. We don't laugh as much as we used to. We don't do as much crap as before. My friend doesn't want to act retarded, do stupid things, or act immature. Basically, my friend stops creating a fun & comfortable atmosphere. Everything is just dead. My friend knows that very well.

One time, we were passing by a place where we had a lot of memories there. My friend talked about how fun it was, the days, the time, and everything. Then, my friend says. "Remember the time when we did this and that with a couple of friends…. ". And "… now, we don't do it anymore. We were too immature back then. We're matured now". Then I say, "No, I'm not"

I was a bit annoyed by the statement which leads me to create this topic.

Now, I'm feeling a bit lost. It's like.... "Did I lost a friend who I once knew"

And by way, my friend always talked about "mature" now. It's getting so god dam f**king irritating. What the f**k is wrong with my god dam friend? We were pretty cool, and then … something has to get in the way.

I'm just lost. LOL. Is it natural that a friend becomes different and everything dies away?

[*suddenly she*]

You can have fun without being immature... people can have conversations and have fun, can't they?

I didn't bother to fit in with groups for too long in high school. It's like the typical thing for a kid like me to join the little asian mafia or girl gang or whatever, but I don't fit in... period. I figure that if I do my own thing and be friendly to everyone, then the few people I really want as my friends will connect with me. aand all those people so far (okay, it adds up to maybe... honestly, two off the top of my head) are somewhat off their rockers, but we have fun in our own way.

Being slightly more mature than others does not make me less compatible with people - or at least, I think so. Maybe I just have the wrong idea about things, but I've been elected and selected for a good deal of positions in class by teachers and students, and I doubt that they'd be picking me for jobs or representation if they thought I wasn't compatible.

idk, I just think that there are better ways to have fun than making fools of ourselves.