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Cutting is like an addiction like drugs are addiction. You can never stop when you want. I've been cutting/carving for 3 yrs. It feels so good but I can't go on like this. I want to wear short sleeves. Ugh..Also I could go to a mental ward. I'm not going to tell my therapist because she will kill me..What should I do?
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![]() -Officially Insane- ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 870 Joined: Mar 2005 Member No: 117,293 ![]() |
Ugh, cutting really is like an addiction. I cut. But I want to stop. I know it's really hard for a non-cutter to understand, why someone would want to hurt themselves like that, if you haven't been in the situation it seems crazy. But idk...I don't cut for attention or anything. I do it in places where people won't see, like my legs. Maybe occasionally on the arms but I just tell people my cat scratched me or something. When you're really depressed or angry or whatever, it's weird having your body feel so numb while your head is going insane. It's frustrating. Doesn't feel right. The body needs to be in pain too for a reality shock or something. And cutting...idk. I feel the pain...but I don't really at the same time. The tearing/slicing sensation of the skin matches how I feel inside and it feels good for it to be physical, not trapped in my mind. And I actually like when it starts bleeding like mad too. Feels like my frustrations are in that blood, pouring out of me. Weird & rather creepy, I know. But I feel so much calmer afterwards. I need to find a new outlet though. I know it's not good to do it, unhealthy. I hate the scars. & I'm afraid someone will catch on.
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