Just A Strange Feeling., This is really long, but I'd appreciate any help. Options

[azn_shortie]

Sorry, I think I let it get too personal.
The more I think about it, the more vulnerable I find myself. Sorry for taking up time, but I guess I'm too much of a coward to keep this here, because it makes me feel weak and defenseless. I'll be okay; there's a war out there, so I don't have much of a reason to worry about silly things.

Thank you to everyone who read or replied though. It was truly appreciated.

[azn_shortie]

Uronacid:
I'm 14, so I know I shouldn't really be worrying about this kind of thing. I'm too young to really understand anything anyway. To the second part, I guess it depends on how you define spontaneous, because most of the time, I don't take risks. I guess that's why I deleted my original post; it made me feel too vulnerable. I haven't really rebelled either. The one thing I did that was actually rebellious was get in a relationship, and that just completely destroyed my parents' trust in me. I don't really know what I want after all. Growing up, my parents told me what I wanted, and I took it for what I wanted. Maybe I'll figure it out one day. Thank you though.

Little Meg Sunshine:
Thanks to you too. I know I should talk to my parents, but the truth is that they terrify me. I can't stand confrontation, because I think I'd be too weak to hold up to my beliefs. I'd end up agreeing with my parents and agreeing to do whatever they want me to do before I even realize that I've relented. As for the relationship, my boyfriend knows that I can't trust him, because it's been a constant issue. It hurts him, but he's standing next to me anyway, so I guess I have that to be thankful for.

jalspose:
I'm Christian too, but I don't think I'm a very good one. I know that God has a reason for everything that happens, but sometimes I just tend to doubt it, because I don't understand what's going on. I guess I just needed a reminder, so thank you. Also, I know my parents want the best for me; after all, what good does it do to them if I have a successful life or not? I think I'll take your advice though. Maybe I just need time off from everything to figure things out, and I hope that a short break doesn't change things negatively. Thank you.