Just A Strange Feeling., This is really long, but I'd appreciate any help. Options

[azn_shortie]

Sorry, I think I let it get too personal.
The more I think about it, the more vulnerable I find myself. Sorry for taking up time, but I guess I'm too much of a coward to keep this here, because it makes me feel weak and defenseless. I'll be okay; there's a war out there, so I don't have much of a reason to worry about silly things.

Thank you to everyone who read or replied though. It was truly appreciated.

[jalspose]

Well first of all let me tell you something
despite your religion
GOD LOVES YOU! Im not trying to push my religion onto you im just stating the facts.
And I have a few questions too.
Why do you feel that you cant trust your boyfriend?
Now not to be judgemental or even rascist(please dont think that)
but Ive heard that in some Asian culture its hard for them to express their feelings and love.
That doesnt mean they dont love you
Your parents DO love you maybe its just that they never were hugged or shown affection growing up so its hard for them to show it to you.
But they do even them having so many "standards" shows that they love you enought to want the BEST for you. Even tho it may be extreme.
Dont think that in your head you cant be loveable.
Maybe you find yourself not trusting your bf or believing him when he says he loves you because you're not used to hearing that.
It doesnt mean hes lying.
He doesnt mean he doesnt love you.
Maybe what you need right now is to take time away from the relationship and figure out what YOU want in life.
How can you love someone else if you dont love yourself?
Take some time a few months a year if you have to, to discover yourself, and to learn to love yourself.
Then if its meant to be your bf will be there waiting. He'll understand why you need time away.
Hope this was of some help and that you read it.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥