Is something wrong with ME? Options

[megggnasty]

i can never seem to make a friendship/relationship work.
i have a lot of trouble trusting people, from past issues, and i think that's a major factor in my lack of social skills.
i'd like to think i'm a friendly and outgoing person, but i'm actually VERY shy.
i make more friends online than i do in person and i'm having a hard time understanding why.

my "best friend" is now close with this other girl and guy, and i feel completely abandoned by her.
and when i try to confront her about it, she dismisses it as if i'm overreacting.
she doesn't even acknowledge the fact that she might be really hurting me.

between my crazy family and bad friends, i can't even try to make new ones.
i'm so affected by my previous relationships that i can't even find the willpower to go out and make news ones.
my only hope (that i see) is leaving home for university and becoming a different person.

ugh.

[achimongus]

I understand COMPLETELY. It's like you want the old ones to work, because the new ones don't feel like they WILL work because why would they? haha, confusing. Advice: (if you want it) I wouldn't call anyone your 'best friend'. Not yet, not until you can FEEL it. She's not a best friend anymore if she's abandoned you. Trust me, there are about 39784329472934873 people in the world and you're limiting yourself to just those few relationships that didn't work. Trial and error, right? That's what life is all about.

I'm all for the University idea. I live in a small town where you get tired of people EASILY, I can't wait to get out.

I'm sorry it hurts, though. I'm currently in the opposite position...I'm doing the abandoning. But that's another story. C=

Sorry if I made things worse!

P.S. - There's definatly not anything wrong with YOU. C=