What would you do?, Cannabis V.S. Ant-Depressants Options

[turntabletux]

1st off, I don't need health freaks tell me how bad cannabis is and whatnot..I know the facts! 2nd, I'd like to hear from the people that are or have taken anti-depressants.


All my life I've had issues. I've had a shitty childhood, school days, hell I had a shitty birth. I was diagnosed with both manic and bipolar depression when I was in middle school. I don't need to go on, because that's not the point, I always say someone else out there has it off worse than me.

Anyways I've been through 5 or 6 anti-depressants and 2 sleep aids. I finally started smoking cannabis in high school, about junior year. I like cannabis 1,000 times more than popping pills. When I took the pills I felt fake all the time. I felt like everything was forced, and my days would rely on if I took a little yellow, white or whatever color pill. Half the time I felt worse than if I didn't take the pills, just because I felt fake happy, the pills are making me smile.

I've been smoking cannabis everyday all day for the past 3 months, and it's been the best 3 months of my life. I've found out what I want to do with my life, overall I've learned more about myself. I started doing my homework, and better in school all together. It also helps me sleep really well.

As much as I love marijuana, I am not stupid. I'm always tired from coming down, takes a lot of money, and it makes me stupid. It doesn't lower my IQ or anything, but once in a while I'll just say something so stupid. Like repeat something someone just said to me. And it puts me in bad positions, for example; I wake and bake and my brother calls me for a ride because he's sick. I just don't want to be an unreliable person.

So if you were in my shoes, what would you do? Would you give the pills another shot. I know a lot of people on CB are against marijuana. Thanks for reading my novel!

[KissMe2408]

hm.
I've had to take anti-depressants for about a year and a half.
I hated taking them at the time, they really just sucked,
and i know the feeling of feeling like your emotions were fake
and what not. I really had no idea what to feel after a while.
I gradually just weened myself off of them. Replaced
the depressants with exercise to kick endorphins up,
and changed my diet around as well, i felt better with healthier
foods actually which suprised me. But got in touch with spiritual
side as well, which actually pulled me out of the major depression
state. I felt like i actually delt with it, instead of hiding in it.

Took up drinking for a while though, kkinda like you taking up
cannabis. I mean, you feel better and crap, but it's just
as fake as the pills. I mean the pills were horrible for my
system, changes ur hormones and shit around. I hated it.
And drinking, well, obviously wasn't good. Eventually stopped that.

You don't want to be dependent on marjiuana. If you can, try to
get off of that. But i mean, i know the feeling of not wanting the
pills anymore. I def do. But i've tried other alternatives such as
drinking and it really didn't work. What helped was just
changing my lifestyle, taking things step by step to work out
my issues, and actually talking to God helped a lot. Know that
might sound dumb, have no idea if you're a christian or not.
but that's what helped me.

I'm sorry, btw. about taking all that crap,
I know the feeling.

[ah, they also foudn out i had lyme later on, which probably
caused a good deal of the depression, or atleast to the
deepness of the depression]

[turntabletux]

hm.
I've had to take anti-depressants for about a year and a half.
I hated taking them at the time, they really just sucked,
and i know the feeling of feeling like your emotions were fake
and what not. I really had no idea what to feel after a while.
I gradually just weened myself off of them. Replaced
the depressants with exercise to kick endorphins up,
and changed my diet around as well, i felt better with healthier
foods actually which suprised me. But got in touch with spiritual
side as well, which actually pulled me out of the major depression
state. I felt like i actually delt with it, instead of hiding in it.

Took up drinking for a while though, kkinda like you taking up
cannabis. I mean, you feel better and crap, but it's just
as fake as the pills. I mean the pills were horrible for my
system, changes ur hormones and shit around. I hated it.
And drinking, well, obviously wasn't good. Eventually stopped that.

You don't want to be dependent on marjiuana. If you can, try to
get off of that. But i mean, i know the feeling of not wanting the
pills anymore. I def do. But i've tried other alternatives such as
drinking and it really didn't work. What helped was just
changing my lifestyle, taking things step by step to work out
my issues, and actually talking to God helped a lot. Know that
might sound dumb, have no idea if you're a christian or not.
but that's what helped me.

I'm sorry, btw. about taking all that crap,
I know the feeling.

[ah, they also foudn out i had lyme later on, which probably
caused a good deal of the depression, or atleast to the
deepness of the depression]

Yeah, I've been trying to change my diet as well. You were diagnosed with Lyme Disease? My good friend was diagnosed with it about a half a year ago. He had a tough time with it too. Thanks for the input!