vulnerable Options

[Winter]

I've started posting since like March but I am sure none of you actually really know me. And it's great you know, coz cB has been like an escape for me. cB is where I am able to truly be myself, no mask or anything.

When I got here, I decided to not get involved too much. Like be friends with all these people. I am not doing that again after what happened in kpopper. And I've done that. None of you have ever communicated with me outside of the forums.

But then I started talking with Chris (asiangetokewl) on AIM and it's so easy to talk with him. For once there is someone who understands how I feel. Someone actually knows part of the pain I go through.

And now I feel incredibly vulnerable. Someone understands me. I just feel scared. I don't know why.

Why am I feeling this? Why do I feel so scared?

[XaZnX07]

Yeah he does... His eyes and hairstyle are exactly like my ex's. So alike it's scary. If you knew my ex and saw Chris' avatar, you'd freak out too coz they look so alike. 

Yes I still want to talk with Chris. He's a really cool guy.

I'm not sure why I feel scared, but I've thought about it. It might have something to do with Chris looking like my ex. I'm scared I'll think of him as my ex. I'm scared I'll use him as a replacement.

Coz the more I see Chris' avatar, the more I see my ex. I was okay with Chris' avatar at first coz it reminded me of my ex in a good way. But now when I see his avatar, I see my ex in him. And now the more I see his avatar, the sadder I become...

I don't understand myself.

maybe you are falling for chris but then again you may still have feelings for you ex? i dnot know

i guess only you would know why you are scared and you just havent found out why you are scared
I understand you i fell in love this girl and she said she cant be with me because of what she believed in but that did not stop me from loveing and trying to move on had my head high and all i had was hope and guess what when you love some one and never give up hope it will always works out at the end so hope you will feel betta

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