vulnerable Options

[Winter]

I've started posting since like March but I am sure none of you actually really know me. And it's great you know, coz cB has been like an escape for me. cB is where I am able to truly be myself, no mask or anything.

When I got here, I decided to not get involved too much. Like be friends with all these people. I am not doing that again after what happened in kpopper. And I've done that. None of you have ever communicated with me outside of the forums.

But then I started talking with Chris (asiangetokewl) on AIM and it's so easy to talk with him. For once there is someone who understands how I feel. Someone actually knows part of the pain I go through.

And now I feel incredibly vulnerable. Someone understands me. I just feel scared. I don't know why.

Why am I feeling this? Why do I feel so scared?

[Winter]

it's great that you put your work above all else. your education is very important and key to your future. i'm sure he respects that as well. keep doing what's best for you in hopes that you can share your future happiness with that man you love.

He does respect the fact that my studies will always come first for me. I remember us talking about me getting a scholarship and us getting engaged. He said he knew I'd choose the scholarship instead of him. But he was okay with it...

we did what we had to do and our love grew through our friendship that we always cherished. it was what really saved our relationship in the end.

I am glad I stayed friends with him. I don't normally talk with my exs' but he was special. He said to me before that even after a break up, he'd still be friends with the girl coz they were friends before and nothing was gonna change that.

I found out that staying friends with him help to get rid of some of the pain. Perhaps it is because he is there, and I don't have to cry over the fact that I'll never get to talk with him again. No matter what, he'll be there as a friend and I think that helps a lot.