vulnerable Options

[Winter]

I've started posting since like March but I am sure none of you actually really know me. And it's great you know, coz cB has been like an escape for me. cB is where I am able to truly be myself, no mask or anything.

When I got here, I decided to not get involved too much. Like be friends with all these people. I am not doing that again after what happened in kpopper. And I've done that. None of you have ever communicated with me outside of the forums.

But then I started talking with Chris (asiangetokewl) on AIM and it's so easy to talk with him. For once there is someone who understands how I feel. Someone actually knows part of the pain I go through.

And now I feel incredibly vulnerable. Someone understands me. I just feel scared. I don't know why.

Why am I feeling this? Why do I feel so scared?

[NvieDi3ai3yGrL]

Your post made me cry. Gawd my vision's blurred.

I don't know what to say, just thank you.

I have faith and I will wait. I can keep hoping until the end of the year. If it's really over then, then will I stop. But until that time comes, I will keep my faith.

awww don't cry :( . it's okay .. i'm just telling you from my experience how i feel on your situation. i understand exactly what it is you're feeling because my relationship was a long distance one too .. him and i are still in that relationship after lots of time and effort. it's great that you put your work above all else. your education is very important and key to your future. i'm sure he respects that as well. keep doing what's best for you in hopes that you can share your future happiness with that man you love. i am happy to hear that you have faith because not many people have it these days. they always are so pessimistic and think the worst. you have to have hope to make life bearable. be strong and i'm sure you both will pull through. there was still a part of me that always told me i was meant to be with my bf and i never gave up on that. and when i spoke to him on the phone or looked him in the eyes i could see that he felt that way too. so despite the hard times we went through on not getting to see or talk to each other that often we did what we had to do and our love grew through our friendship that we always cherished. it was what really saved our relationship in the end. good luck and always stay strong hun =]. if you ever need any moral support you know you have all of us here on cb<3