vulnerable Options

[Winter]

I've started posting since like March but I am sure none of you actually really know me. And it's great you know, coz cB has been like an escape for me. cB is where I am able to truly be myself, no mask or anything.

When I got here, I decided to not get involved too much. Like be friends with all these people. I am not doing that again after what happened in kpopper. And I've done that. None of you have ever communicated with me outside of the forums.

But then I started talking with Chris (asiangetokewl) on AIM and it's so easy to talk with him. For once there is someone who understands how I feel. Someone actually knows part of the pain I go through.

And now I feel incredibly vulnerable. Someone understands me. I just feel scared. I don't know why.

Why am I feeling this? Why do I feel so scared?

[NvieDi3ai3yGrL]

Huh... Go jump my ex's a$$? Well to tell you the truth, I'm still holding on, hoping that we'll get back together again one day... Coz we made a pact... That at the end of the year, when my national exam is over and he comes back from the marines, we'd have a talk about 'us'. I know that's still a long time more but I can't help but hope. And my ex and I are still friends. We were friends before we got together, so we remained friends after the break up.

So there is basically no way to get over my ex. I've tried hating him. I've tried crying. I've tried b*tvhing about him with my friends. They all don't work. They all just make me think about him more.

ashley, i completely understand how you feel. i've been there and done that. i remember all those promises that we'd always be together, etc. it's hard to let all of that go. have faith in him and i'm sure things will work out right in the end. just be patient and give it time. the more you push he'll just pull away. so you have to let him breathe and come back to you full force naturally. never give up hope. it's a wonderful thing to have. when all else fails hope gets you through each day. things were going downhill with me and my boyfriend for a while and i never gave up. i knew he'd come back when the time was right. it took a while but him and i have been getting closer and closer each day since. as long as you stay friends and the friendship stays strong and grows there's every reason to hope that things will be perfectly fine. there's not much you can do to get over someone you have such strong feelings for. so don't let it pass you by. if you feel it's worth it just stick with it and it'll be okay. good luck.