vulnerable Options

[Winter]

I've started posting since like March but I am sure none of you actually really know me. And it's great you know, coz cB has been like an escape for me. cB is where I am able to truly be myself, no mask or anything.

When I got here, I decided to not get involved too much. Like be friends with all these people. I am not doing that again after what happened in kpopper. And I've done that. None of you have ever communicated with me outside of the forums.

But then I started talking with Chris (asiangetokewl) on AIM and it's so easy to talk with him. For once there is someone who understands how I feel. Someone actually knows part of the pain I go through.

And now I feel incredibly vulnerable. Someone understands me. I just feel scared. I don't know why.

Why am I feeling this? Why do I feel so scared?

[Winter]

00H ASHLEY IS IN L0VE WITH CHRIS!!

Hush girl! What are you saying?!

Me love Chris? Why is everyone thinking that?! My ex, my friends, why do you all think I'm going out with him?! Is it because he looks like my ex so much?!

I miss my ex but I'm still sane! I know Chris is Chris, and Paul is Paul. And even though they look alike, they're not the same! And I'm not going to use Chris to replace my ex!

Geez...

Oops sorry Susan. I didn't to make such an outburst. Just felt pissed that's all. Not at you.