i wish. Options

[moninja]

i wish i could've shown you just how stupid you've become,
i wish i could tell you that you were my only one.

i wish i didn't have to go day-to-day,
constantly lying that i was okay.
i wish the sun would refuse to shine,
and that in pure darkness, you would be mine.
i've always wished that love could be blind.

i wish i was more than a daisy in your garden of roses,
i wish that the stench of failure wasn't dancing deftly beneath our noses.
and i wish that you and i could take an innocent walk through the snow,
i wish that you didn't always have to go.

i wish that one day,
your heart would freeze over from being so cold,
and that one day,
your heart would break from all the weight of the lies it holds.

the ending is the most beautiful, but the most painful simultaneously
i wish that you were the one now missing me.

i wish that i could cry you a river of tears,
and that one day i could float far, far from here.
i wish that i didn't have a raft that could save me,
and that i would drown saying "i'll always love you, baby."

i wish you could hear me call out your name in the night,
and i wish you would understand that with you and i,
there was always something that felt right.

i wish i could fall asleep and never awaken,
and that way, i wouldn't have to go another day
with a smile i was faking.

i wish that everyone knew i wasn't alright.
i wish your blue eyes didn't have to be so bright,
and i wish that now i could get them out of my head.
i wish that goodbye was something easily said.


i wish i'd never known that you existed,
and you would've walked by, and i would've missed it.



it's not the best, i tried.

[*jayen*]

It touched me, I feel the pain in the writing. I loved it!