For My Mr. Wright, I'll never stop loving you. Options

[xxmisxtakexx]

I still love you Brandon Lee Wright. ♥

It has been 171 days since I lost him.

Am I better? I don't know.
Is this pathetic how much I'm still in love with him? Yes.
Did I take it too hard? Yes.



Will I ever give up? No.



I'm sorry I still love him. I always will. You can't just let go of something that wonderful. He was perfect for me. I'm sorry you didn't realize how much he made me happy. And I'm sorry that you don't realize that I will never be with you. Love just doesn't work that way. At least for me, when I fall in love. I won't let go untill I die. When I told him that I would love him for the rest of my life I MEANT IT. Never agian will I see a face and not think of him. If any boy with dark drown hair and the most beautiful blue eyes could make me fall in love, then I'd fall in love everyday. But that wasn't it. I loved the way he smelled. The way his eyes would wrinkle when he would laugh. The mole on his stomach. His hairy butt. And his hobbit feet. The way he would share milk with his dog. The way he looked when he was sliding across that tree limb. How much he loved popcorn//milk. How his hair was never clean. The way my lips felt when I blew rasberries on his cheek. The way he looked when he was wet. How smart he was. The way I could spend hours talking to him. His little sisters. How the first time I was at his house one of his sisters dogs peed on me. How he was proud of me. How blunt he was. I loved so many things about him. I can still taste the way he kissed. That sweet but bitter taste that fills your mouth. I loved when he told my brother he could have a free shot at him in the stomach and my little brother hurt his hand.





But most of all. I loved the way he loved me. Even if it was a lie. I was happy. If you could show me just one person that loved more than I did, I'd show you a liar.

And you won't change the way I love him. No one will.



Lovely is: [[still waiting for you]]

[you said you'd never stop loving me]

F*** all of you for hurting me. I'm tired of it. I'm crying. I know that is all you ever wanted. Damn my head filled with memories. Someone help me. Fix me. It's broken.





This is what I had for you. This is what I wanted. This is what I'm tired of doing. I'm never going to love again.





Do you remember when
Love was like a fairy tale
I could hold your hand
And it would be another day in your
Arms


But baby I am only 15 years old.
Maybe we'll have a baby
But Maybe
I'll just be another one of your girls

Many, Many have said
young love is rarely true
But you can search all the land
And not find someone that loves as much as I do

But baby I am only 15 years old
Maybe we'll have a baby
But maybe
I'll just be another one of your girls

I've heard all the things
That you've been ashamed of
I kow what's done is done
but my heart won't hold
a grudge


I hope you know this love is like a fairy tale



I hope you liked it. Cause that is what I've felt.





I have had my moments of happiness, love, doubt, reassurance, extrodanary happiness and then unexplainable pain.

[xxmisxtakexx]

Thanks everyone. Now if he only could read this? I just feel like I messed things up for him you know? He left me for a married woman and he was sleeping with her. I am firmily against cheating so I told her huband and he didn't believe me, but I did put a fire under his belt. He wouldn't let his wife out of the house and they ended up moving. Mind you Brandon is 16 Jessi [[the other girl]] is 16 and has a child and Justin [[ The father]] is 19. Brandon said he can't help but hate me now because he LOVED HER. But I love him. I can't help but wonder if I'll ever find him again. I'm so scared this will hurt forever. It's made me a drunk, it's made me addicted to blow, I can't sleep, I can't do this anymore. I can't////

It hurts loving someone that hates you.