Low Self Esteem Options

[Tyweezy]

I was wondering if anyone else has low self esteem. I feel like the only one at my school. Everyones so happy about how they look except for me. -.-

[Jerico Drum]

I used to have a real low self esteem. I used to beat myslef up for it all the time...no seriously. My parents didn't know until they came into the bathroom and saw the blood flowing from my nose. In fact no one know. I didn't tell anyone till it was over. I hated the way i looked, acted, how I treated people, and how no matter what I did everything in me told me that I would fail at everything I would try. I gave up so much because of it. I was a shell with few friends and the hate for my family was only rivaled by the hate for myself. I was 12 when I tried to kill myself...12! How the f**k does a twelve year old het the idea to try and kill himself. My parents took me to a shrink and put me on pills. I stopped going and stoped taking the pills. I couldn't stand the thought of a perfect old lady whos rich father put her through colledge and never went through half the shit others have gone through trying to tell me it was all going to be ok, and then shoving pills down my throat. So I never went to the shrink again. I remained this way until I was almost 14. I said all this not to get pity or take the spot light of the person who asked the question but to show that there is hope. I was in a bad way, but I made it through, not unscarred but I am here none the less. My way out was Jesus (though I am not longer a devote christian like I used to be) but it might be something different for you. But I will say this about christianity, even you don't believe search around for a church. If you find the right one with the right people it will change your life. It wasn't the thought of Jesus that started me on the path that lead me out of the darkness, but the love and support that I recieved from my youth group. For once in my life I felt that someone cared if I were to leave this world. I went from having almost no friends to having a whole youth group long before I was christian. So even if God doesn't appeal to you some fo the people that follow him might. Hint: Stay away from big churches, go to a more poor church. You will find the real christians there instead of those judgeing pricks that look down on yuou because you are different. Find a church that wants to help you in what way you need, not shove a bible down your throat. Find the church that if then can do nothing else, they will support you and love no matter what you chose. They are hard to find, but there are churches out there like that. Not all devote christians are bad.