competition.., i hate being the shadow Options

[tWinKliEmE]

im so depressed now.. i mean like i have this cousin.. shes the same age, same grade, same school, same gender..but the problem is, shes better than me in every way... the onliee thing i CAN beat her in is sports... athletics...
it seems like she gets everything. shes like the smartest person in the grade.. and im like her shadow, always the second best. in 5th grade, she beat me for president .. of student council.. and just yesterday.. she beat me for 8th grade chairperson of student relations..
i mean no one knows how i feel. i feel like i cant ever do anything. i cant ever win. i cant ever be first. like everything i want most, diane gets.. and sometimes she doesnt want it that bad. she gets everything.
its like not fair. like.. i thought i had a chance of winning because like all my 6th n 7th n 8th grade friends told everyone to vote for me..but she still won..
sometimes i wish i wasnt here..

[tWinKliEmE]

well, i cant sit down and talk to her bout it cause everytime i tell her that i feel that shes always gonna be better than me and everything she says that shes not.. she says that she doesnt get everything.. but she really does. and like some people have told me that theyre jealous of her ..