Death, my only friend. Options

[*mSz_dOrk_anGeL*]

I've been waiting to showcase this poem. I think I did once before a WHILE back and now it's gone and no one saw it so yeah. Tis be my best work. Yeah, it always discribes how I feel and right now, Its perfect for my feelings. I was waiting to put it into the cB poety contest but yeah, I guess I always could but for now, it's here. Enjoy.

I wanna be alone
don't dare try and make me a clone
it'd be a waste anyway,
who'd pay to see another ugly face?
im drowning in my sorrow, scared and dazed
my life feels like a never-ending maze
does anyone else feel similar pain
and wish they'd get hit by a train?
thats how i feel twenty four seven
im scared if i die i wont go to heaven
so i'll stay for a while, til i cant take it no more,
cry until my eyes are sore
drink my life away till it dont hurt no more

I got my wish i guess
im alone,
no ones home
the perfect time
to commit my crime
hands shaking, holding the sharpened knife
i knew it would come to this, it was just a matter of time
no one could reach out to me
to make me see
the reasons why, i should not die

the fridgid metal touches my wrist
it glides across the skin
until maroon colored blood
spills over my hand
i sat there crying in the dark and unwelcoming shadows of my bathroom,
counting the painful drops of blood that hit the floor
when they stop i will suffer no more
my wrist wont be sore.
i wont see you again
you were my only friend
so trustworthy and loving
you never lied, only sat with me when i cried
you sit with me now, in my last minutes of life
but theres nothing you can do
and you were the only one i knew i could turn to
you dont know whats happening
because you are only death, my best friend.

[danathin]

I posted it years ago on a messageboard. i lost the link years ago when we got rid of aol. She changed the last line too. which is why it totally doesn't sound right. It had said "You are my dog, I love you forever seb"