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 Oct 17 2006, 11:30 AM
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Originally started by faithin_felix.
Dear cB diary - I wish I could somehow make the days last for more than 24 hours at a time. It seems like I just can't get everything done lately. :( And I'm nervous about the new job, but excited at the same time. |
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Nov 4 2006, 07:42 PM
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Dear cB diary,
I've been feeling horrible lately. It might have something to do with the weather, but I was never this depressed in November.. It's just.. My mind has just been overly over-analytical. I've been thinking about things a lot more. Changing my mind on some views, rethinking how I feel about things, thinking back to the past to see what I've done wrong. My mind has been lingering toward the past lately. It's just.. When I think back to those things, I realize that I highly regret them. Especially if I'm being hurt by my actions even now. I've gotten too attached to things. I need to escape. I'd take the Greyhound somewhere, but.. I'm broke. I wouldn't survive anywhere for a week on $200. I want to go somewhere where no one can find me. I don't want to bring anyone along.. Just my thoughts and feelings. Somewhere where it's nice and quiet. Maybe I can just scream and cry my eyes out there. I just.. I need to leave! My dreams have been partially crushed. I'm giving up on it all. I can't rely on it. I probably don't have the grades to go anywhere, let alone Caltech. Heck, I don't think I'll even get into NYU! I don't even have a reason to go to Caltech anymore. Maybe I'll just rot at a community college nearby and waste my life. I don't give a shit anymore. I can't rely on anyone and I know that for sure now. At this moment, nothing is influencing me. I have no reason to become an astronomer. My dreams have becoming more and more dim and I don't think I can live up to anyone's expectations now. I just don't have the mental capability to follow my dreams anymore. I don't know what I'm gonna do.. |
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while... Nov 14 2006, 07:38 PM Wo0yaPo0ya Dear diary,
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rant Dec 9 2006, 04:43 AM Wo0yaPo0ya Dear diary,
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I wish i could tell him how i real... Dec 9 2006, 04:55 PM Wo0yaPo0ya Dear diary,
I am SO bored.
My boyfriend was only ... Dec 9 2006, 07:30 PM x1227x dear cbd,
GR i hate her! go to hell. Dec 9 2006, 07:30 PM Wo0yaPo0ya Dear diary,
I've done so much posting in foru... Dec 9 2006, 07:41 PM x1227x dear cbd,
god, why do you have to start so much d... Dec 10 2006, 05:50 PM Lilium Dear cB diary,
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i really hate her. i wish she would get... Dec 11 2006, 07:01 PM minioligo it's just not f**king fair.
what the f**k. jus... Dec 11 2006, 10:48 PM x1227x dear cbd,
you're the bestest friend ever.
... Dec 13 2006, 01:09 AM unconfirmed_existance Dear CBD,
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lately, people have been asking me what... Dec 13 2006, 06:18 PM stephinika Dear cB diary,
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it's almost 500 days...
the day is ... Dec 15 2006, 08:28 PM guessewho Dear CB diary,
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Rant time.
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