Love hurts, I'm hurt Options

[mizzkim]

this is only half the story

You guys I need a little cheering up. My boyfriend and I have been having problems. It was because of me and I didn't realize it. I was saying mean things on aim because he was typing to his "online" girl talking about "hes going to ignore me for eight months". I thought we were okay 2 weeks ago on sunday. But then again I screwed because that online girl kept saying stuff like "yeah he wants to ignore you". I was listening to her and say kinda rude stuff on Aim. I had no idea.. what I have became. And when I saved all those coversations with him I feel horrible. I did something bhind his back because he was ignoring me I went to go check his little game forum accound because he was talking to that "online girl". When I read it "it said I'm such a gentlemen to her, I just want to slap her and call her bitch". To me I got very concern. I pressured him I had no Idea, he was joking at first. Because I did it to him, and I forgot. He was trying to tell me on aim how I screwed up, and he was just calling me vulgar words. And now when I think back it was all me , and he didn't do much wrong. The thing is if he was my boyfriend why didn't he stop me from acting crazy? I didn't know my crying affected him either, I was taking it out on him. He was my first real boyfriend. We were in a serious relationship. He was the type on boy like in a romantic love movies. He gave me all my stuff back. I wrote him letters to say I was sorry, because I realize what I done. He gave them back. I thought if I gave him space he would be okay at school. I talked on aim asking about his sister. He just kept saying I won't be nice about it anymore, stop going in circles, and leave me alone. So I called him on the phone just to make sure, he wasn't mind gaming me. And I just simply said hey I just want to know on aim is that stuff true. He said some stuff. I told him I still have feelings for him, does he feel the same. He kept saying I dunno I dunno. Then told me that quote "I love you but I don't like you as much". The boy feel in love with me really , and I just feel terrible because I was way out of control. I lost him..and he was such a good boyfriend. Later on last week he tapp me saying I just don't want to be in any relationships for a while. He said he was still angry, and fighting a battle with him self. Told me if I was going to be okay, I said yeah. Then he smiled(which I think it was a forced smile) and he said don't lie. And I told him as long as you don't hate me we can be friends. He didn't respond to it, and when the bell rung and he walk away. He wrote a letter to my dad.. saying he will never forgive me how I treated him.Nor will be friends. But he left out the love and cared. I really miss him and even wonder am I in love? I go on the interenet just to hurt myself. He's been talking to that"online friend" I talk to her to because I guess I still care about him. She tells me he calls her. I just don't know do you think he will forgive me on how I acted?

I dunno I need someone to talk to , my friends havnt been in these types on relationships

[Trinie]

hey there! im so sorry to hear about ur and your bf. stuff like this happens all the time. i guess just give him time and maybe he'll come back. i'm sure he will miss you, and he will come back to you. just give him time to cool off and stuff.