oh my f**king goodness, something is messed up with me Options

[loveTWOhateTWO]

Okay, so there's this guy [named Will]. I met him in 6th grade [im in 8th now]. So me and him were moderately good friends. We would always hang out at school. So I started liking him in like the middle of sixth grade. Yeah, I had some good times with that kid, but then he found out that I liked him, and then this whole thing happened with him and I was supposed to get over him, and then I thought I was, and I thought I liked this other guy [one of my brother's friends], and then me and Will were friends again, but then I fell for him again... And then he got pissed again, so we weren't friends. Pretty much, that whole thing made seventh grade the worst year of my life... not to mention other problems with friends. Well so annnnyhow, I did a lot of thinking over the summer... I fell for this other guy named Cameron [also a brother's friend], and I thought I was over Will, so I told Will that I was honestly over him... After a few months of working things out, me and Will are friends again. Well Cameron has a girlfriend already, and plus, he's my brother's friend, so that makes my chances with him a LOT slimmer, and so I sorta let it die down, so that I wouldn't get hurt by him or anything. When 8th grade started, I put pictures of Cameron in my locker anyway. I still like Cameron, but now I think I like Will again. I mean, we actually talk a little bit now... but we BARELY talk, and when we do, it's not about anything important. So I'm not sure if I like HIM or just how he LOOKS, or if I'm just attached to him, or just attatched to the feeling of liking him... Ughh... I don't know!! I'd really like to know why I still can't stop thinking about him, or dreaming about him, or seeing his face when I close my eyes.

Is this normal, or am I just really messed up?

[*Kathleen*]

Don't be. Or at least try not to. Honestly, if he gets mad over your attempting to speak to him, then you should just forget about him - he wouldn't be very much of your time. People change, as sad and as hard as it is, in a negative way.

[loveTWOhateTWO]

Don't be. Or at least try not to. Honestly, if he gets mad over your attempting to speak to him, then you should just forget about him - he wouldn't be very much of your time. People change, as sad and as hard as it is, in a negative way.

well he doesn't get pissed off if i try to talk to him... he just used to. so im still all paranoid about that, even though i don't need to be.

Oh man, I've been through this so many times. I know exactly how you feel, and suprisingly, I've gotten over the kid. What I did was just avoid him, and try not talking to him. And because I'm in high school and the campus is huge, it's easy to do that. The one thing I suggest you doing, is go out with your friends one day, and scout out for boys... I got another boy on my mind now.

actually, i think im starting to like this one other kid... like... he's such an amazing kid. :] he makes me smile when i cry.

I think it's because like.. you've spent & had so many good memories with him that it felt like you guys were a couple, you know? If you guys barely talk, maybe he just wants to be acquaintances with you. He doesn't want you to majorly fall for him again.

i've never actually thought of it that way. but that's so true. so i should probably give him a ton of space and work up to being better friends over a long period of time.

Sounds like you're in a tough cookie. I think you should take some time alone to figure out what you want. It seems like the more people you include, the bigger the issue gets. Like Kathleen said, it depends on whether or not you'd like to be friends with him.

hmm... well whenever i include a person, i count it as a separate issue. that way it's easier to deal with, because it makes each problem seem smaller... and also it keeps my emotions organized. i actually have numbers for my problems, that way, i don't have to let all of it swirl together. because if i don't keep my emotions organized, i get really confused about what they really are, and then i cry.