Disgusted with yourself..., yeah.. Options

[expoised]

Have you ever done something that seemed fun and okay to do at the time, but later on regretted it so much that you're just completely disgusted with yourself?


Like... My first kiss (not counting anything before 2nd grade, lol) was a bus-dare while we were on a field trip (8th grade). The guy was okay-looking but I hardly knew him at all and I was so anxious to actually kiss somebody that I was just like "okay" and I did. We ended up making out the rest of the ride back... and the next day back in school, we resumed ignoring each other.

I really regret wasting my first kiss on something stupid like that.




There's also the fact that I'm more relaxed around guys and whenever I talk to my guy-friends, I tend to be more... not as clean as I'd like to be. And when we're talking everything's okay... we crack dirty jokes, talk about stuff that I would normally just keep quiet about. But then, when I'm alone and I'm thinking back on the day, I find myself going "Why the hell did I say that?" and being completely embarassed despite the fact that it already passed and I'm alone.


Ugh.



I'm sick of being completely disgusted by the things I do. And I keep telling myself that next time, I'll think before I act, but it never works. I'm pretty much an impulsive person and do whatever I feel like doing at the time, no matter how much I regret it later.

You ever feel this way?

[adolelolz]

Ugh I know how you feel.

I totally wasted my first kiss...And my second...O_o

First one was basically a dare, like yours. Okay looking, never talked to him again. Second was with my brother's best friend, a.k.a. the biggest player alive. So he basically forgot about it the second we were no longer kissing.

Ugh.