Breaking Down Options

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A year ago, I was very confident about myself and to people around me. i try not to avoid people or i will miss an opportunity to meet new people. I was courageous and fought against my fear. Then, i was able to face and had fun with people. Back then, i had low self esteem and I wasn't quite comfortable socializing with people. I always felt apart from them.



This new school year, i felt different. i lose my sense of who i am. i felt a major impact from last year and this year. Something is bringing me down. i wasn't confident, or courageous anymore which means, I'm really losing myself. I don't even know my goal anymore. I feel very isolated by people and...lonely. I have trouble facing people now. I am a lot less happy from last year. Last year was a blast and all that jazz with friends.



Yeah, I am really paranoid about myself. What can I do about myself? I lived by quotes and it's not working anymore or ... I forgot these quotes.

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A year ago, I was very confident about myself and to people around me. i try not to avoid people or i will miss an opportunity to meet new people. I was courageous and fought against my fear. Then, i was able to face and had fun with people. Back then, i had low self esteem and I wasn't quite comfortable socializing with people. I always felt apart from them.

Wait, Im confused....were you confident last year or not?

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Wait, Im confused....were you confident last year or not?

Yes i was.

Well, first of all, why do you have trouble facing people?
Is it because it gets awkward and stuff?

I don't think living by quotes is a good idea. I used to do that with Jimmy Eat World song lyrics ( ) and it was just a weird phase.

Maybe you just need time adapting to school.

Or you should try listening to good music. Like really upbeat music like.. The Postal Service and Mae and stuff like that. I dunno. Listening to music always makes me feel better.

I dont know. i lack certain human quality .. like, confident, self-esteem, and all these crap. It always get awkward to face people. there are people who just passed by me without saying anything. I didnt do anything. Music makes it worse ;O

first of all, you need to forgive yourself. it doesn't matter if you don't think you did anything bad, you need to forgive yourself.

if i was in your situation, i would make a list. make a list of all the people you care about and another list of all the people who care about you. it might show you how different life has been lately.

has anything happened to you? maybe a loss? breakup? or maybe your just not sure of who you are anymore. maybe you just really want to find the real you & your purpose in life, you know?

How good is forgiving yourself. I do forgive myself. Sometimes, it's not worth it.


LOL. I did analyze friends that I care since summer vacation. I don't know anyone that cares about me. I'm just "different" and "weird". I feel really behind with friends.


Nothing had happened to me, things just get ... rusty and weak. I need to break the habit of being "down" all the time.