bulimia Options

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Do u barf right after eatting when ur bulimic? I'm trying to become bulimic. But it's not really working because today i tried after dinner but my sister caught me! I don't know how this is going to work out. Has anyone gone through this? Teach me!

I've tried being and anerexic and exercising and gonig ton a diet none of them work.

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This upsets me because it pokes a people who have REAL eating disorders. If you can eat normally and not have to think about food 24 hours of the day (im talking food in teh dreams baby) then you are so blessed. You don't seem to undestand that anorexia and bulimia are not the next diet trend, they are mental disorders. The people who do them cannot stop. It is an addiction to control. It is a constant battle between success and failure and it all surrounds food. You don't learn to become bulimic. This is not a learn how to style your hair type thing. This is life and death. Thousands of girls die all over because of it. People slit their wrists and lose their connection to reality from it. I know, because I suffer from an eating disorder. I am plagued by food every minute or every hour of every day. everytime I eat I feel like a failure, like I will never be thin enough to be good enough. It runs my life. Every decision I make is food based. I never go out with my friends because I know they will want to go out to eat. I fast on juice and lemonade all the time to lose weight fast. Its so scary. And I'm fully aware of my problem and I have no desire to stop. THAT is an eating disorder my dear. And its horrible. when you find yourself pulling away from people you love and all you can think is "they will love me when I'm skinny" then that is Anorexia and that is Bulimia. You need to grow up. there are better ways to lose weight than starving orpurging. and I know it sounds hypocritical coming from a person suffering through it, but I know how bad it is and I would give almost anything to be normal like other people. to be able to think about anything but what this peice of chicken is going to look like on my ass tomorrow.

Thank you!