one of those bestfriend vs boyfriend things Options

[raenbow*]

I have been mostly an observer on createblog... reading topics and thinking how it was more like a story to me. Never felt how real everything was and how I would be desperate for help too someday. I am in incredible pain because I'm a senior in HS and my boyfriend and bestfriend (guy) left for college. I am afraid that I am falling very very hard for my bestfriend. I felt worse to see my bestfriend leave for college....I never thought I could do that to someone, especially my boyfriend who I have been dating for quite a while. My bestfriend is the greatest person I have ever met in my entire life and hes hanging in there, waiting for me. I am certain he did not influence me into liking him, and my boyfriend is a great guy. My boyfriend is very attatched to me and I am scared that hes going to do somthing stupid/harmful if I go around this the wrong way. I still love him on a certain level and I always live. My bf invested so much time and effort and stuff in me... I am letting him down. He just doesn't give me the heartache when I'm away from him... and just that feeling, you know? My bestfriend I could see marrying (im not saying i will..but hes just so great) but I dont want to screw anything up now either. I am going to talk to some of my friends.. but I'm not ready yet because I have to decide who knows the situation the best, and its hard because they all know my bf and some are really close to him. I hate knowing that I enjoy my bestfriend's hugs more than my bf's. i feel like such a jerk.

Basically... I need advice on talking to my friends, talking to my bf and my bestfriend, what to do... anything i guess. All I know is that I have to tell the two of them something and that its only fair...

[RxCore]

i say that you kinda just go on a break from both of them. take some time to clear your head and maybe then you'll be able to decipher what you want to do.