i blew it.., will i ever get that kisss Options

[lollypop036]

ok well what happened was that i recently went on a trip to spain and i found out from his sister that this guy called patrick liked me and that he was gonna make a move on him and i told her that i dont think im ready cuz ive never kissed a boy before and she said its best to get it over with with someone youll never see again(they live in ireland) but i want my first kiss to be like really special lol, i didnt tell her that though..so the next day they somehow managed to get us alone and he was about to kiss me then i backed away cuz i was like really scared and nervous and had all sorts of thoughts runnin through my head like wat if im a bad kisser?, will the dinner i head take its toll on my breath?, wat if my little brother and sister see? and stuff like that, so ya, i backed away and he looked really upset, but he understood cuz his sister told him im frigid..but now im wondering if ill chicken out everytime i guy tries to kiss me..and wat really sux is that i think he was the first guy that ever liked me..so ya wut do u think? will i be frigid forever?

[lollypop036]

yea i really wanna get it done and over with cuz like sum of my friends have already had sex and i havent even kissed yet! and sum ppl make fun of me about it too..i dont usually give into peer pressure..and im not desperate to do it..but it would be nice to just have that a thing of the past