I am so confused its not even funny. Options

[oXMuhNirvanaXo]

Ok, This is not spam to start out with..

Ok me and my boyfriend have been going out 10 months on August 6. (Holy shit 10 months..) Tonight we got to talking and we both brought up sex.. STAY WITH ME.. ok, me... I kinda wanna get married but..thats a sorta.. I DO NOT WANT KIDS.. Him, He dosent wanna get married and he dosen't want kids eather.. ANYWAY.. I start talking to him how I wanna wait to have sex till im married.. <-- Lie.. -_- I wanted to see what he would do. He got really frushtrated and got pissed and he said.. " YOU KNOW THAT I DONT WANNA GET MARRIED!" Right there and then he was about to dump me right on the spot. Then I told him that I wanted to see what he would do if I do so.. H was like.. " Did it help any? "

Right now I really dont know.. it kind of bothers me how he would dump me just like that.. I that to me would have felt liek a big waste of time. I really to love him and care about him alot.. He understands that I wont have sex right now with him because I am going in to the 10th grade..

I JUST AM SO CONFUSED

Advice..

Please help

[oXMuhNirvanaXo]

You people are thinking "Shes so young and shes saying she dosent wanna get married blah blah blah ?" Yeah, Well, I think about these things. I know right now that I wont be getting married because I am scared of it not going right. My parents are so messed up with there lives and they are so un happy. They don't even sleep in the same room anymore. My dad sleeps in the basement and she sleeps up stairs. I dont want to turn in to them. I know that my love life is not like theres but its just the thought that scares me. Like.. " Hey, That could be me.. Stuck yelling and bickering at my loved one. The one I dont even love anymore." People chance over years and love soon dies. I think it is because of the thought that you are stuck.

Why Date? You dont have to get married to have a loved one with you. Like some one said in the past in here you dont need a marrage licence to commit your self to some one. Love is its slef alone. I will probley move in with some one some day and be happy not married and with out kids.

But yet I am scared to die alone. But that is my problem that I have to deal with in the future and what not. Also, Its not like we are going to have sex at this time of our lifes WE ARE GOING TO WAIT.. I have been saying that in this fourm. It's just that when We get older and he is ready and I say.. WAIT.. I am waiting till I am married. I know what I did was wrong but it was my choose and I did what I did for my self. It's not that I don't trust him but he could have said somthing diffren't and in a few weeks he would dump me for some bull shit reason and it is really because of what has happend 3 weeks ago. NO. I did not what that to happend. Not saying that he would have dumped me. 3 weeks after. Don't think I was not thinking of what I was doing when I was doing what I was doing.

I am young but with a big mind that I use way to much. -_-