GROWINGG .. up and understanding friendship, ...the dayS Options

[demolished]

Through many years passed in life, I always thought friends were totally pointless. I didn’t understand the meaning of friends at all. I was alone and bored as always. The days in my kindergarten years made an impact on me. I was only a lonely child who tried to make a friend on the first day of school. Sadly, this dude didn’t care about me. He suddenly ran off to play with other toddlers. I even asked him, “can I play, please?” many time. He didn’t care at all.

At that foolish point of my childhood, I thought I could just be alone. I no longer care about making friends or tried hanging out with them. Every recess, I sat down, eating, and did nothing. I was satisfied with it. Why? Friendships mean nothing to me which made me antisocial.

Through the years, I became a pessimistic person who thinks of negative things. I thought everyone’s worthless.

I had a horrible start in my childhood. My family made me really stupid and discourages me big time. “ you’re stupid Steven”, “all Steven’s are so stupid”, “ha-ha you’re going to fail school”, “you’re a dumbass”, “you’re never go to college”, “Steven is going to fail his mission project”, “ you’re pointless”, “ you’re a loser”, and “shut the f**k up, man”.

With all that negative influence and thoughts enter in my head, I became very self-conscious about myself. I avoid many things that I should be doing. The only fun thing was school teacher. That’s their job as an elementary school staff, right?

When I hit 4th grade and moved to a new school. Life was better. I made only one friend. Haha. He was just like me, a loner. Fascinating, eh? I was really really really glad to make at least a friend but … I took disadvantage of him. As I mention, I always thought friends were totally pointless and I don’t understand the meaning of friendship.

He was like my best friend until we hit 7th grade. The age when puberty occurred, mood swings happens and stupidity wins. We separated because fight over something stupid that he did. He copy and paste my entire friend’s screenames from the AIM profile username tracker (it was known as, subprofile.com). I was really surprise and shocked.
Then, we stop hanging out. I left him alone all by himself. He was too different for me. He wasn’t very open to new things. I was totally the opposite of him. We used to be the same. I guessed, he never grew his personality and lifestyle.

Anyways, I hanged out with another group of friends … crappy friends. In 8th grade, I wasn’t involved with them anymore. I was involved with certain mature friends in ELD class (English language development). I began to take friendship seriously. I see everyone having such a great time with friends that made them happy. I read people’s xanga, they loved their best friend and all that junkies.

I admired these people. Somehow, I felt, “they were better than me, having a better time then I did” … and I end up, being depressed, suffering, and sadistic about everything. I felt truly alone and crying at home.

Until I hit my freshman year. THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE ! I met more people, got to know them more, and became better friends with very old classmate. Basically, I was extremely open to many people. They were pretty dam cool and awesome. i hanged out ... ALOT, well, not thaaaat much.


i was happier. i finally understand what was friendship. i thought about them too. We did the most stupid things ever, went out to eat, holiday party, enjoy pissing off an adults, weird things, we were very immature but we had a lot of fun.


At the end, i was proud of myself. I stay away and lost contact with all my shitty friends. i tried my best to involve with people … then I became really good friends with them. it was really hard. it took alot of guts and courage to get what i desired the most.




When did you start appreciating friends ALOT? tell us your story!

[jue]

I enojoyed reading that (:

Hmm, for me, When i was in kindegarten and elementry school i didn't really have much friends. I would just talk to the classmates and what not but like not really hang out with them. In school, school i would usually hang out with this one girl, but outside of school it was like we didn't even know each other. Before 6th grade came, I would stay home every single weekend and not hang out at all. I had no social life. Every day it was Wake up, go to school, come home, eat, do hw and sleep. But when 6th grade came around, it was when i really started hanging out and getting real friends. I met these 3 girls and it was awesome. But then during that time, I realized that having friends also meant having alot of drama. There was alot of talking behind each others backs and stuff. But at the end things cleared up. When 6th grade ended, one of the girls had to move, so I sorta lost contact with her. And then there were 2 left. In 7th grade, things were going normally. It would be me and girl one and girl two. [I don't wanna name names.] During 7th grade, i got really close with my new friends. One of my friends from kindegarten came to the school that i was in, and we re-uinited sorta. I also met another friend. Still, there was alot of drama and such. Soon, one of them didn't hang out with us much anymore, so we lost touch. Soon 8th grade came around the corner, and me and one of my friend from 6th grade, we went to some summer school thing and thats when we got really close and we also got real close with this other girl. Soon, one of the girls stopped hanging out with us, but she had her reasons. We still talk and everything, but just not as much as we used to. So now its left to me, friend from 6th grade, and friend from kindegarten and friend from summerschool. I love them like woah. I'm seriously glad i met them. But since highschools gonna start soon, and we're all going to be seperated except for two of them, i hope we still keep in touch.

Yeah so thats my story. I think its really confusing but i tried ><