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[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

In light of recent events and the majority of the cB community generally wanting to bring together a closer community, I took the liberty of re-starting a thread that BrandonSaunders started a while ago. I thought a new one should be made, to start fresh and new and this way we could all get closer. I think this is one of the few topics where we SHOULD have a version 2/3/4 and so on, because it's a topic where I am asking, as Brandon asked that we all share stories and opinions and feelings and interact.

Reference to his topic, and ideas of questions and such to ask can be found here : http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php...=115046&hl=


As Brandon said :

For the most part, most of us are nothing more than screennames and links to networking and blogging mediums.

Lets take the opportunity to get to know each other. Feel free to ask someone (in here) a few questions about them; something that has always interested you about the person. Try to maintain proper decorum, but make an effort to reach out to someone instead of wondering what someone is really like.

I'm an open book. So I guess yous can all start by asking me something.

This should be fun...

This time, you could start by asking me something, or asking someone else something that you've always itched to ask about.



Im Isabella. Im 14 going on 15, but people usually mistake me for somebody 16-19. Not really because I have an 'old' looking face but because of my general appearance and demeanor. I know online i seem childish and immature to many of you, but that's becase this is the internet and I dont give a f**k. But to people I know in person, they see me as very mature and grown. Maybe it's because of events in my life that have made it hard for me to have a normal childhood. For instance, I used to find solace in gang life and activity because I thought it was somewhere I could fit in and find respect and power but then my long term boyfriend and whom i believe to be my first love was shto and murdered and I realized this wasn't the life I wanted to lead, living each day worrying whether or not it would be my last or if I'd wake up tomorrow. I was molested, physically and sexually abused by 2 different boyfreinds and a friend of a friend. I look for love and reassurance in all the wrong places because my parents are ... the epitome of a failed marriage. All i have known from my parents is hatred. All they do is fight and yell and take it out on the children. Im also not exactly poor but yet, my family barely manages to live paycheck to paycheck. Any questions ? Does anyone want me to go into depth about the gangs, the abuse experiences, the family ? Feel free to ask questions.

[Hiphop d[-_-]b]

ALIIIIIIVE.


Thought I'd bump this back up.
Hmm ... questions .. questions.

Question:
What quote[s] motivates you?

"Nobody has your back like you do"
Although kind of negative, it is true in some sort. There are lucky people out there who find someone who truly would risk everything for them, but I've never had that and until then I always think of this quote when it comes down to serious things that may involve me getting hurt or into trouble.

"Once you've taken a couple punches and realize you're not made of glass, you don't feel alive until you're pushing yourself as far as you can go"
It's just very true. You can't be strong until you've been weak.


I sometimes think im unusual, or odd because I find myself thinking about, well, unusual things. At this moment, I can't even explain what I think about, but all I know is after a few minutes of turning these thoughts over in my mind, i begin to wonder if anyone else thinks about this as well, what if its only me that thinks like this, do i spend too much time thinking about things and then thinking about what others think about what im thinking about.

Hmm ..
Hello.


EDIT-
Oh and also, my biggest fear
Is the unknown. What I dont know scares me. For instance, death. Not death itself but what it brings and if there really is life after death and is it happy ? Do i fullfill all my dreams in heaven ? Is there a hell. It's unknown, and that makes me uneasy and scared. No one is really scared of the dark, but the paranoia of what is within in the dark.
I guess also, being alone. Im not sure if it goes under the unknown, because I know what it's like to be alone, and im frightened i might be alone forever.