Is it worth speaking,, or should i rest in agony 'till it's gone? Options

[iminlovewithTomD...]

Alright... how to explaiiiiiiiiinnn...

I really really like this guy (named Will), and I have liked him for *counts* 16 months or so... and we used to like be good friends, but then he started getting all weirded out because he knows I like him... Then he sorta just stopped letting me be by him, and he got all annoyed and told me to like leave him alone and stuff... so I went through a whole suicidal phase, and now I'm out of that whole phase, but he does't understand that... and I think he still talks behind my back to his friends about me being suicidal and shit...

And so he's like really really mean to me now, and I can't stop replaying all the mean things he says to me. Last night I even had a dream that he was being mean. All I really want is for me and him to be able to be friends again and stuff, but he doesn't understand, so he just goes and acts like an absolute bitch to me, and I can't take it anymore. So I really wanted to let him know, but I don't know if it'll work, because I explained to him that I'm not like suicidal anymore or anything, but he didn't listen to me - he didn't reply (and yeah, it was like 2 weeks ago that I told him that). So I'm really confused..

To speak, or not to speak... because I don't want him to just keep on being this way... it really really hurts. I don't wanna have to let go... I mean it's just not fair!! I've accepted the fact that I'm never going to "get anywhere" with him, so why can't he and his lazy ass just accept the fact that I care about him!? Ughh..

[topsyturvy]

I mean seriously!! You can't be angry at me for not knowing what I've been doing wrong...
If you're going to be mean to the extent where even my DREAMS are filled with you being a bitch, then at least give me a reason!!

You can't say to him "give me a reason" and expect him to give you one. If he had one, he would've given it to you to shut you up (pardon me) a long time ago (seeing as he really wanted to get rid of you).

But really, i don't think he's worth being friends with if he won't even talk to you. Think about it, wouldn't you be the least bit concerned if someone you know starts talking to you about suicide, let alone a friend? Maybe this means he doesn't consider you a friend... sorry.

I think you should stop thinking about him no matter how hard it is. It's going to be tough, but it's one of those things that you just gotta do, regardless of how much it's going to hurt.... kinda like a diet.

By the way.. just curious... how old are you?