Is it worth speaking,, or should i rest in agony 'till it's gone? Options

[iminlovewithTomD...]

Alright... how to explaiiiiiiiiinnn...

I really really like this guy (named Will), and I have liked him for *counts* 16 months or so... and we used to like be good friends, but then he started getting all weirded out because he knows I like him... Then he sorta just stopped letting me be by him, and he got all annoyed and told me to like leave him alone and stuff... so I went through a whole suicidal phase, and now I'm out of that whole phase, but he does't understand that... and I think he still talks behind my back to his friends about me being suicidal and shit...

And so he's like really really mean to me now, and I can't stop replaying all the mean things he says to me. Last night I even had a dream that he was being mean. All I really want is for me and him to be able to be friends again and stuff, but he doesn't understand, so he just goes and acts like an absolute bitch to me, and I can't take it anymore. So I really wanted to let him know, but I don't know if it'll work, because I explained to him that I'm not like suicidal anymore or anything, but he didn't listen to me - he didn't reply (and yeah, it was like 2 weeks ago that I told him that). So I'm really confused..

To speak, or not to speak... because I don't want him to just keep on being this way... it really really hurts. I don't wanna have to let go... I mean it's just not fair!! I've accepted the fact that I'm never going to "get anywhere" with him, so why can't he and his lazy ass just accept the fact that I care about him!? Ughh..

[iminlovewithTomD...]

i've been doing that for like 2 months.... how long does that dumbass need?