Is it worth speaking,, or should i rest in agony 'till it's gone? Options

[iminlovewithTomD...]

Alright... how to explaiiiiiiiiinnn...

I really really like this guy (named Will), and I have liked him for *counts* 16 months or so... and we used to like be good friends, but then he started getting all weirded out because he knows I like him... Then he sorta just stopped letting me be by him, and he got all annoyed and told me to like leave him alone and stuff... so I went through a whole suicidal phase, and now I'm out of that whole phase, but he does't understand that... and I think he still talks behind my back to his friends about me being suicidal and shit...

And so he's like really really mean to me now, and I can't stop replaying all the mean things he says to me. Last night I even had a dream that he was being mean. All I really want is for me and him to be able to be friends again and stuff, but he doesn't understand, so he just goes and acts like an absolute bitch to me, and I can't take it anymore. So I really wanted to let him know, but I don't know if it'll work, because I explained to him that I'm not like suicidal anymore or anything, but he didn't listen to me - he didn't reply (and yeah, it was like 2 weeks ago that I told him that). So I'm really confused..

To speak, or not to speak... because I don't want him to just keep on being this way... it really really hurts. I don't wanna have to let go... I mean it's just not fair!! I've accepted the fact that I'm never going to "get anywhere" with him, so why can't he and his lazy ass just accept the fact that I care about him!? Ughh..

[*This Confession*]

You can try talking to him and tell him the truth that you don't like him anymore and you just want to atleast be friends. And just explain everything, if he doesn't want to listen or he doesn't believe you. Honestly I say to just leave him be, I'm sure you can find better people out there to be your friends and that will trust and believe you. The only way to get him to accept anything is to prove to him its right. And well if that fails just give up. Its not worth it.

[iminlovewithTomD...]

You can try talking to him and tell him the truth that you don't like him anymore and you just want to atleast be friends. And just explain everything, if he doesn't want to listen or he doesn't believe you. Honestly I say to just leave him be, I'm sure you can find better people out there to be your friends and that will trust and believe you. The only way to get him to accept anything is to prove to him its right. And well if that fails just give up. Its not worth it.

Well I would, but I still like him.. even though I know that we can just be friends... I'm just not like suicidalish anymore...

But he said this to me on my Xanga

That's funny. I actually laughed out loud. It's amazing you have friends. You know, maybe I would want to be your friend if you STOPPED. It's pathetic. Seriously, f**k off. Don't ruin my summer with your....Psycotic reasoning. You remind me of a misquito.

So I guess he said he would want to be my friend if I stopped... but what I'm supposed to stop I'm not so sure of...

I think that if he isn't willing to listen to you, and talks about you behind your back, he's not much of a good friend. I think that you've given him enough chances to turn the tables and be friends again. IMO, you should move on and find someone new, even though it'll be tough. You'll be happier once you stop worrying about him.

I've given him a ton of chances, but I just think he doesn't see it that way... or maybe I'm doing it wrong... I don't know... But I know there are other people, but being as I go to a Christian school with 26 people in my grade, 9 boys (over half of which think I'm some pity-seeking suicide freak because of Will) I can't really find anybody, except in my brother's pile of friends, which I rarely get to see... I mean, I like one of my brother's friends... but I like Will even more... and I don't even know why! Because 1. He's an absolute bitch, and 2. I don't even really know him anymore...