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In light of recent events and the majority of the cB community generally wanting to bring together a closer community, I took the liberty of re-starting a thread that BrandonSaunders started a while ago. I thought a new one should be made, to start fresh and new and this way we could all get closer. I think this is one of the few topics where we SHOULD have a version 2/3/4 and so on, because it's a topic where I am asking, as Brandon asked that we all share stories and opinions and feelings and interact.

Reference to his topic, and ideas of questions and such to ask can be found here : http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php...=115046&hl=


As Brandon said :

For the most part, most of us are nothing more than screennames and links to networking and blogging mediums.

Lets take the opportunity to get to know each other. Feel free to ask someone (in here) a few questions about them; something that has always interested you about the person. Try to maintain proper decorum, but make an effort to reach out to someone instead of wondering what someone is really like.

I'm an open book. So I guess yous can all start by asking me something.

This should be fun...

This time, you could start by asking me something, or asking someone else something that you've always itched to ask about.



Im Isabella. Im 14 going on 15, but people usually mistake me for somebody 16-19. Not really because I have an 'old' looking face but because of my general appearance and demeanor. I know online i seem childish and immature to many of you, but that's becase this is the internet and I dont give a f**k. But to people I know in person, they see me as very mature and grown. Maybe it's because of events in my life that have made it hard for me to have a normal childhood. For instance, I used to find solace in gang life and activity because I thought it was somewhere I could fit in and find respect and power but then my long term boyfriend and whom i believe to be my first love was shto and murdered and I realized this wasn't the life I wanted to lead, living each day worrying whether or not it would be my last or if I'd wake up tomorrow. I was molested, physically and sexually abused by 2 different boyfreinds and a friend of a friend. I look for love and reassurance in all the wrong places because my parents are ... the epitome of a failed marriage. All i have known from my parents is hatred. All they do is fight and yell and take it out on the children. Im also not exactly poor but yet, my family barely manages to live paycheck to paycheck. Any questions ? Does anyone want me to go into depth about the gangs, the abuse experiences, the family ? Feel free to ask questions.

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Who/what has been your inspiration?

My inspiration in life will always be God. His presence in my life inspires me to be strong and keep on living, even when I'm tempted to just give up. I can't tell you how many times He has helped me through some pretty awful situations. He is my life support.

Whats something in your life you really value and love ?

Besides my faith, I really value and love people. The love I possess for my family and friends is unparalleled, but I also care a lot for the ones I don't know. I'm one of those silly girls who believes that people need other people to lead happy lives. Not for self serving purposes, mind you. I think that in order to be truly happy we must be positive forces in the lives of our fellow human beings. My life has always been about taking care of people and making a difference in their lives.

I also value laughter. Too often, we take things a little more seriously than we should. I think that we need to be able to laugh at ourselves and the world around us sometimes to really enjoy life.

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Now for a little about me.

I'm Lauren. I don't do nicknames. Right now, I'm 16 years old. Although, I'm still young, I know exactly who I am. I'm a girl who is madly in love with God, a writer, a musician, and utterly obsessed with justice and the truth. I realized a long time ago that my grades do not define me, so I'm not at all concerned with them, even if I'm an AP kid. I'm the one who smiles all the time, even when it seems like there's nothing to smile about. I love people, laughter, and possibilities.

Mind you, I wasn't always this optimistic. There was a point in my life where I wasn't happy with myself - a point I refer to as "the Dark Ages." My family has always been terrific, but I was unsure about myself, so I started to hang with the wrong crowd. They weren't into drugs or crime, but they were definitely into being selfish and mean spirited. They made me feel worthless, and not having a strong sense of self at that point, I believed them. I had a 6 month struggle with bulimia because I thought that somehow being skinny would make me love myself... which it didn't. The physical damage was not nearly as extensive as the emotional damage I suffered from hurting myself the way I did. I came out of it with the love and support of my mother. To this day, my dad and my brother have no idea.

I wouldn't have been able to do get where I am today without my mom or God. Both love me unconditionally, and with their love I finally understand that I'm perfect the way I am. Nobody can take away my identity or my sense of self. It has become my life's purpose to help people see the beauty within themselves and see that true friends love them for who they really are.