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In light of recent events and the majority of the cB community generally wanting to bring together a closer community, I took the liberty of re-starting a thread that BrandonSaunders started a while ago. I thought a new one should be made, to start fresh and new and this way we could all get closer. I think this is one of the few topics where we SHOULD have a version 2/3/4 and so on, because it's a topic where I am asking, as Brandon asked that we all share stories and opinions and feelings and interact.

Reference to his topic, and ideas of questions and such to ask can be found here : http://www.createblog.com/forums/index.php...=115046&hl=


As Brandon said :

For the most part, most of us are nothing more than screennames and links to networking and blogging mediums.

Lets take the opportunity to get to know each other. Feel free to ask someone (in here) a few questions about them; something that has always interested you about the person. Try to maintain proper decorum, but make an effort to reach out to someone instead of wondering what someone is really like.

I'm an open book. So I guess yous can all start by asking me something.

This should be fun...

This time, you could start by asking me something, or asking someone else something that you've always itched to ask about.



Im Isabella. Im 14 going on 15, but people usually mistake me for somebody 16-19. Not really because I have an 'old' looking face but because of my general appearance and demeanor. I know online i seem childish and immature to many of you, but that's becase this is the internet and I dont give a f**k. But to people I know in person, they see me as very mature and grown. Maybe it's because of events in my life that have made it hard for me to have a normal childhood. For instance, I used to find solace in gang life and activity because I thought it was somewhere I could fit in and find respect and power but then my long term boyfriend and whom i believe to be my first love was shto and murdered and I realized this wasn't the life I wanted to lead, living each day worrying whether or not it would be my last or if I'd wake up tomorrow. I was molested, physically and sexually abused by 2 different boyfreinds and a friend of a friend. I look for love and reassurance in all the wrong places because my parents are ... the epitome of a failed marriage. All i have known from my parents is hatred. All they do is fight and yell and take it out on the children. Im also not exactly poor but yet, my family barely manages to live paycheck to paycheck. Any questions ? Does anyone want me to go into depth about the gangs, the abuse experiences, the family ? Feel free to ask questions.

[Rachel]

Jackie and Bella, you two are both amazing human beings and if you ever do need anyone to talk to, I am here.

Meh, I am Rachel and I don't know what to say. I guess I will just talk about Tom. I lived in Arizona basically my whole life and moved to Mass. last year in October. By December, I basically he was my boyfriend. I fell into complete and total love with him. I couldn't imagine not being with him and I let my love for him blind me from all of his faults. I didn't even know how hard I could fall until him. We were happy until summer of 05 when he cheated on me and after that, it was never the same. I lost faith in our love for eachother and in how much I meant to him. We started to fight more but I didn't want to leave hin. We broke up two times for a day at a time and then in March, we stayed broken up. He told me he didn't love me anymore and my heart smashed on the floor into a million pieces. I couldn't believe, I don't think my heart could handle the truth. I would tell people, oh he will realize what he has lost and will come back, but now I want him as far away as possible. He became a completely different person to me and now I don't even know why I stayed with him for almost a year and a 1/2. For the past 3 months (wow it feels like a hell of a lot longer) he has caused me so much pain that even if I did still love him, I could never allow myself to go back. I forced my feelings for him to the back of my mind and eventually out of my system. I realized I couldn't let my dream of him running back to me even be a dream. He was my first for many things, especially a broken heart. I used to think that the reason that I moved to Mass was to meet him, the so called love of my life, but now I realize it was just to make me a stronger person. Heartbreak really f**kin sucks, but now I am a better person and I know that I can survive it. I thought my world was ending but now I see it is just beginning. I know now that Tom wasn't the love of my life, he was just a love in my life. I can't wait to find the person who I know loves me for who I am and who I am meant to be with...lI wish I could have more to say or be more inspiring but I guess I can't. I guess I will end with part of a conversation I had with the lovely MissssCrissssy<3.

rachelis4lovers: us girls, we put our whole entire hearts into relationships
rachelis4lovers: just to get them crushed
M1SSxCHR1SSY: I know!
M1SSxCHR1SSY: And we do it over and over again.
rachelis4lovers: Yup, some days I just want to give up
rachelis4lovers: but I can't, because I know that love is real.
rachelis4lovers: and I will find the person who loves me the way I love them.
M1SSxCHR1SSY: yes exactly


(Wow, I wrote a f**k-load)