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[Kontroll]

There have been three girls that I have liked in the last year pretty much.

The first girl was a wreck because I guess she had problems with her family. I didn't care. That wouldn't stop me from liking her. She drank all the time and smoked, which I can't stand because my dad died from it. I told her that she was messing up her life in various different ways. I wrote her poems and crap like that. At parties I would have to hover over her basically so she wouldn't cheat on her boyfriend. I slept next to her for the same reason. I loved her, but I couldn't do it because we just had different lives.

The second girl really pissed me off, because she told me she liked me and wanted to get married and whatnot. Then I find out she's going out with this guy that is thirty four years old. And it's her boss. A couple weeks go by and she tells me how much she hates him. I'm like, 'okay. Then break up with him.' Well, another few weeks go by and she told me they broke up. I was happy until she told me they were going back out. I was like, 'screw this bitch. I'm not going to just sit around and wait for you.' She was selfish, and very materialistic. I'm not.

Thirdly, and lastly. The last girl I love. She's great, but she drinks and smokes and sleeps with some guy that I don't feel even likes her. I told her that he's just using her. I said this from the things she told me about him. I've only met her four times in person, and I've liked her from the very beginning more than any other person. I get nervous when I think about her. It's crazy. I told her that she is wasting her life because of her drinking almost everyday and smokes. Like I said, I told her that my dad died from it. She tells me that it's her life to ruin and that she doesn't care.

The sad thing is, is that all three of the girls are Christians. Christians are suppost to have a high standard for life and here they are. All three of them, just throwing it away like it's trash. My friend Josh(Uronacid) asked me if I was attracted to girls because I think I can help them and change them. I don't know. Maybe. It's not like I know what they are like before I meet them, you know? I just don't know what to do. I'm really concerned for the third girl. I really like her and she said she liked me but she loves this kid. I don't know what to do.

Please, adivce. NEEDED REALLY BADLY. Yes, Josh, if you want to say anything, go ahead. I don't care. You've already heard all this before though. Peace.