Compulsive Cheater?, looking for advice.. Options

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It really bugs me to have to ask cB for help, but I can't ask my girls and I certainly can't ask my boyfriend.

I've dated this guy for two and a half years. He knows me inside out, accepts my flaws, helped me when I was suicidal, got me through cutting, stays up with me at night. He's my best friend, without question. Last year I cheated on his with someone I knew. The guy I cheated with was a friend, but I wasn't emotionally attached. I started to thing that I wasn't in love with my boyfriend anymore. The combined things put us in a bit of a fight and after two weeks of being apart I realized I was miserable without him. I was lonely and became completely cold hearted. Just honestly cruel and icy to the point that even I was shocked at myself. Plus I realized I was in love with my ex so we talked a lot and I begged and pleaded (oh so humbling) and we got back together. He forgave me (in fact he's friends with the guy) but I've never forgiven myself.

So its a year later. My eye started wondering towards another guy (vaguely considered a friend to me) after I had two dreams about cheating with him (while one of my friends watched and smiled no less ) and just last night I had another dream about cheating on my boyfriend with some other guy (who I don't even like!). I don't know whats going on with me anymore. Is this a phase or something? I'm really starting to worry about myself.

[*This Confession*]

well no one get mad at uronacid.

sheesh

Anyway if hes a good boyfriend and you guys have good communication with each other then you should tell him about these dreams and stuff. Be honest with him. If he gets mad then he gets mad, in a way he does have a reason to be. But if it doesn't work out
then its not meant to be. Also, if it doesn't I would actually not date anyone and clear your head and think about what you want in a relationship...and then if you get in another one be ready. Relationships aren't easy, believe me. But for now if you really want to be in this relationship and want it to work then you need to talk to your boyfriend.
Thats all you really can do, and you'll feel a lot better then keeping it inside of you all the time. I know that for a fact as well

and Josh paradox is right, shes just giving advice...only on what she knows about the situation. So shes speaking her opinion of a solution that she think is right, not everyone is going to think its right.



oO
also
dreams don't mean what they really are
they have some similarties to real life
but they usually don't mean your going to do the
exact thing that happend in the dream