Compulsive Cheater?, looking for advice.. |
Compulsive Cheater?, looking for advice.. |
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It really bugs me to have to ask cB for help, but I can't ask my girls and I certainly can't ask my boyfriend.
I've dated this guy for two and a half years. He knows me inside out, accepts my flaws, helped me when I was suicidal, got me through cutting, stays up with me at night. He's my best friend, without question. Last year I cheated on his with someone I knew. The guy I cheated with was a friend, but I wasn't emotionally attached. I started to thing that I wasn't in love with my boyfriend anymore. The combined things put us in a bit of a fight and after two weeks of being apart I realized I was miserable without him. I was lonely and became completely cold hearted. Just honestly cruel and icy to the point that even I was shocked at myself. Plus I realized I was in love with my ex so we talked a lot and I begged and pleaded (oh so humbling) and we got back together. He forgave me (in fact he's friends with the guy) but I've never forgiven myself. So its a year later. My eye started wondering towards another guy (vaguely considered a friend to me) after I had two dreams about cheating with him (while one of my friends watched and smiled no less ![]() |
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*sigh* Paradox is just saying the harsh truth that comes with requesting for help. Someone had to. I'd like to think I'm not being selfish considering I'm usually so giving and selfless, but after everything last year its exactly what I beat myself up for.
And Uronacid I don't understand your question if it was directed to me. |
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