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| *stephinika* |
 Mar 26 2006, 03:27 PM
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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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| *jooleeah* |
May 5 2006, 05:01 PM
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thanks chrissy
 dear cb diary, i feel uneasy. like a strange part of me has been waiting to come out of me. its rather sickening. maybe it's just me trying to get rid of all stress. but i know it's not the way to handle it. i'm not a sane person...or at least i'm not going to be one for a while, anyway. how horrid is this? damn. something is wrong with me. its like, i feel like i need to do something drastic to change all the horrible things about me. to make wonderful people stop worrying about me. to make me stop apologizing for things i never realized i did. i feel like i need to go through a certain amount of pain for all the things that i've done. not physical, but mental. i just need to get something out of my system. some horrid person inside of me is waiting to come out. i want to leti t out, but i just don't want to let it out in front of people i love the most... sometimes i wonder why i have so much pent-up anger inside of me. why i have so much hatred for little things that just bother me. why i'm such a hypocrite. i know theres no simple answer though. there could never be one. Edit:// Dear cb diary, Wow. My mood completely changed. Maybe it was the Naruto. :P Or maybe it was being able to talk to a couple of friends and catching up with them. You know? I'm going to prove to Rani that shedoesn't have to worry about me. She's such an amazing friend. She's gone through so much. She shouldn't have to even think about how I'm doing twice. She should worry about herself. Same with everybody else. I need self-esteem. But how do you get it? I've been acting like I have it. Through sarcasm. Through being somewhat "blunt". But obviously, that's all fake. Ah, well. I don't want to go all introspective. That always gets me into horrid moods. -Julia. |
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