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 Mar 26 2006, 03:27 PM
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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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Apr 26 2006, 10:39 PM
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dear cb diary,
why did that b*tch end up with him? sure, they're a cute couple, but why? i don't even believe that she ever liked him. i heard about it the saturday i come home from class all happy and then i go online and it just ruined my day! i was in denial for a few hours, then i was angry, and now i'm beginning to accept it. but i don't know why, but i still like him. at first, i started hating him and a week later, i had a dream about him. it just felt so nice. and when i wake up, i just feel so happy and lightheaded. but WHY? i think i still like him. i'm pretty sure i do. and i guess i feel happy for them. but why do i still want them to break up? why am i hoping that someday in the near future they would break up? anyways, i probably don't have a chance with him. he thinks he's in 'love' but i think the opposite. 13-year-olds don't fall in love. most people my age are too immature and they don't understand the true meaning of love. and i guess i don't either... i keep trying to let go of the memories, but i just can't. he just makes me feel... so happy. i want him to be happy. but for him to be happy, he has to be with her. i just feel so lonely in this cruel world. i just... feel so unloved and alone. i thought he liked me. more than a friend. but it turns out that he forgets about me in a couple of months and finds someone else. I JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. i just can't stand around pretending nothing's wrong with me. whenever someone asks me if i'm ok, i just reply, "i'm fine." but the truth is that i'm not fine. i'm screaming for help. i'm crying for him. i don't even think he's worth my tears. i've learned not to cry over boys. i've learned to get over people. but i just can't! whenever someone leaves me, i cry. a lot. and some people i'm still not over. i just feel so alone. so depressed. i just want him to stop 'loving' her. can't he realize that it's not love? love takes time to develop. they've only been together for a few weeks. love takes a lot of time to develop. i cried myself to sleep last night just thinking about him. i pondered the true meaning of love. ever since they started going out, i've been sort of a sleep insomniac. i always have to think before i go to sleep. sometimes, i just can't sleep. i just wait until i pass out in front of the computer. when i go to sleep, i'm faced with all those heartbreaking thoughts and i don't want that to happen. ever since they've been going out, i've been drinking more often with my friends. i know i'm too young to drink, but i just can't stand the pain. drinking helps me cope with it. this is the most i've ever done to get over someone. this time, i fell hard for him. i just don't think i'll ever get over him. i just don't think that he loves her. i just don't think that i ever really loved him. i'm just so confused now. |
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