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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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Dear cB Diary,
What the hell am I doing? UGH. What the fuckkkk. Everybody hates him yet I invited him to prom. I love him and all of my best friends hate him. This is stupid. I'm stupid. I don't even want to go. It's so expensive. We have no money for sh*t like this. It's coming up so fast along with all of this other sh*t too. God damn, IB tests. f**k. I'm going to fail them. I know this. I've come to terms with it, accepted it. I'm not going to get my IB diploma. There is no way in hell for me to do well on my business, biology, or calculus tests. NO WAY. I'm failing all three of those classes, I fail every practice IB test, I fail every regular test, everything. I'm a freaking failure. Nothing I do works out correctly. You would think now that at least him and I are going to try to be friends and that he said yes to prom I'd be happy. I'm clearly not. I just keep getting lectured about it from everyone, I keep getting bitched at about everything, just nothing works out. I'm stressed out of my mind. I want so well to do well on these tests and I know it's just not going to happen. There is no possible way in hell for me to basically learn all of the material for this entire year for every class in two weeks. NO WAY. I'm such an idiot. I f**ked up this year so badly not only with school but with him and friends and family. I fail at life. This is so stupid. I'm such a bitter person. I hate this. I want things to be better, to be different. Each effort I make to do that doesn't help...f**k this all. Seriously I'm so sick of it. I want it to be last summer. When I was actually happy not now when everything just keeps getting worse and worse, where sh*t keeps crashing down. I'm not even that stoked to go to UNC anymore after visiting today. I'm just not into anything. I'm sick of everything. -Me. |
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