Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 |
Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 |
*stephinika* |
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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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*jooleeah* |
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dear cb diary,
it amazes me how sometimes i spill my heart out onto this tiny little forum topic. i guess just don't care about how public this diary is. i just need my emotions to get out. anyway... so i've come to realize that i overanalyze. i overanalyze A LOT. i put things into strong consideration before doing anything drastic..especially when it comes to boys. boys, boys, boys. goddamn. i realize that i'm too picky, and too choosy when it comes to liking someone. this is why i feel so lonely sometimes. this is why i'm almost never fully content. isn't that terrible? i wish i weren't like that. i wish it were like the old days where i didn't have to think too much about liking someone. i just know that i overanalyze because i want this "someone" to be perfect; no flaws. but isn't that impossible? why can't i fully understand that? i'm so fxcking difficult. this is so sad. oh so sad. i also wish i weren't disappointed so easily. i hate disappointment. dissapointing others..disappointing myself...being disappointed in others. it just sucks. it really does. i expect things to get worse each time but when they actually do, i go even crazier or even more sad. my personality sucks. bad qualities. blah. AHHH. i'm going to go insane. |
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