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 Mar 26 2006, 03:27 PM
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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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Apr 2 2006, 03:43 PM
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 hello : )  Group: Official Member Posts: 4,227 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,139 |
Julia, I freaking love you. Talk to me if you feel like poo because I will try my hardest to cheer you up!!
 Dear cB Diary, I haven't written in a while, I'd say. Not that much has really changed or happened to me. Go figure. So he's ignoring me. Why? I have no idea. I wish he'd at least talk to me to tell me why he's going to ignore me. That'd be nice. I can't not talk to him. It doesn't work like that. I can't not see him. It doesn't work like that. He needs to be a part of my life and I need to be a part of his as well. I don't get it. How can he just act like this and push everything away? It's the weed I tell you. It has to be. I've been watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind quite a lot and you know, it speaks to me. Even though they wanted their memories of each other to be erased, they end up realizing that they love each other and no matter the outcome, they still want those memories, etc. Why can't Phillip see that? Why can't he see that no matter how hard he tries everything that happened, happened, and the memories are important because soon that's all we'll have. I just want him. Is that so bad?? Prom is coming up. What a joke. I don't want to go. I want a date. I don't want a friend to take me as a friend. I want someone to take me as a date. I want Phillip. Again, Phillip, Phillip, Phillip. God, what are you doing?? Okay, enough, enough. Let's talk about this Spring Break. I spent more than half of it at home crying because of Phillip. (Ah, there I go again.) But then I started to go out starting Thursday night. That was fun, I suppose. Saturday night was pretty fun. Drinking a bit, going to the hookah bar, dancing, driving downtown to only turn around and come back home, watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind again, and teepeeing that jerk's house. Whatever, I guess this week was alright but I'm so sick of everything. Of people and all their stupid drama and even MY own drama and problems. Sick of it all. I just wanna go to college and get away from high school, parents, etc. And mostly I just want him. Ugh I hate myself because all I do is talk about him and think about him and god damnit even when I'm trying not to it still happens. What the hell...This sucks. Man, and now that Spring Break is over I have so much shit to do. Brilliant Christina, bloody brilliant to leave it all to the last possible minute. Story of my life. I do everything wrong. Why do I even try anymore? I might as well just kiss that IB diploma goodbye. I don't even think I'll pass the tests anyway so all of this work just seems pointless when I could be doing other things like sleeping, though that is a pathetic way to spend my time. In fact, I think I'll go do that now. I don't know why but I just love sleeping. It's my favorite. It takes me away from this hell-hole world and I get to dream. In my dreams I can actually be happy. I must sound insane... -Me. |
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