Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 |
Createblog Diary, Version 8.0 |
*stephinika* |
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originally started by faithin_felix.
You guys know how it works. Dear CB diary, Wow, it's been awhile since I've been in here. Europe was absolutely amazing, but I'm sad to be home. I missed my own bed and Adrian but other than that...I want to go back. I miss it so much. Now that I'm home, there's so much stress and so many stupid things to do...ugh, its driving me crazy. Fiddler practice yesterday was so frustrating because people are so stupid. At least I saw Adrian. That was absolutely wonderful. I love just being with him. I missed him so much. It made me so happy that he came to the airport to see me when I got back. It was a lovely surprise. It really was. Got sick when I got home though for a few days which really sucked. I'm feeling better now though...still tired. I want to see him again. I can't help being so...attached. I just love being with him and everything so much. We need to makeup for the time I wasn't here... |
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*jooleeah* |
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dear createblog diary,
i hate knowing that i'll never be content. there's always, always something about myself or someone or something that's not good enough and unsatisfying. why? why is it so hard for me to be fine with who i am? i'm wondering that after this dieting and working out thing...once i get my body "toned", will i even be happy? will all that hard work go to waste? that's so stupid how i think once my physical appearance turns good, i'll be so much "happier". i have the greatest friends in the world. they're so amazing. they're just such great people. they're ALWAYS there if i need them. am i the same? am i just as good as a friend? i'm worried that i'm not. i'm so f**king selfish. i hate selfish people. that just makes me a hypocrite, doesn't it? god. i wish i had motivation. i wish i would put more effort into things. it's like..i just dont' care about things anymore. it's so terrible. so sad. blarrrr. i wish i had a person to love as well. not friend like..but..you know. i just keep on watching these soap operas and reading all these love stories..and it makes me yearn for a type of love that they have. all of it is fake, though..right? ahh. i'm just rambling. i'm so disappointed in myself. |
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