he'll be gone., forever Options

[islandkiss]

I've been dreading this saturday; Since it's going to be the day where we're going to take my grandfather off life support. I guess I should start off by telling you why we came to this challenging and confounding decision. Well, after living with alzheimer's and athsma, our family recently discovered an ambigious bump on the side of his neck which looked swollen but we never would have guessed that it would have turned out to be cancer. It seemed as if each day passed, he grew weaker, and his tumor was growing rapidly and more fatal.

He's unable to open his, once gentle and promising eyes. i'm sure i'll miss them

Because of this illness, he is now unable to eat by himself and he's unable to breathe by himself so he cannot live without the assistance of life support (refers to a set of therapies needed to "preserve" one's body/life".) The reason why we chose to take him off of life support is not because we're "cruel" or "cold"; it's because we know he's suffering but we still don't feel right about it. His cancer is irreversible and it's ebbing away at his life every second; I accompanied my mother yesterday to go see him, we didn't stay for long because I couldn't look at him; he just looked so helpless. I stood there crying, Ashamed. Guilty. Angry. well, I just felt like sharing this with you guys. I just don't know what to do anymore. My grandfather and my grandmother had been helping my parents raise my sister and I and when he dies, i'll just lose apart of myself. i've never lost anyone before; I guess I need your support. <3

[xXMomoBubbleTeaX...]

I am so sorry.. you had to experience the pain of taking someone whom you love off life support.. thinking to yourself your jusst taking their only thing thats keeping them living away from them.. but it's better for your g-pa to be not burden of the pain he's been having on you && your family && to himself.. && he's prolly really proud of how strong his family is && is prolly looking down on you from the heavens.. praying for you && blessing you.. && always looking upon you.. making sure everything in your life is going okayy.. I know how you're feeling.. my g-pa the other say had a heart attack.. && he's not suppose to make it through the night.. It's horrible how we can jusst predict someones faith of life expectancy.. I hate it..I don't think life should be determined through numbers && test.. && experiments done on the body.. Only God can tell someone whether one is going to die or to live.. He blesses his children with miracles everyday!!.. && he can make the impossible happen.. I don't know if you believe in God or not.. but good luck && I hope your family can get past the mourning of your families lost.. && move on from this tragedy && hopefully it'll make you all stronger as a family.. I know every funeral makes me thankful for each family member there attending that funeral that they are also not in a cufin.. GOOD LUCK SWEETIE.. && your in my prayers!!..