fun...., then lonliness Options

[rOckThISshYt]

well, i don't really know what the point to this is.... i just wanted to know what you guys think about my 'love life.'

well, basicly, i don't have a love life. i have... guys. no boyfriends. no romantic dates. i meet guys, hook up, do stuff... lasts about two seconds. i mean, yes, i have fun and i want to do it again... but i mean, i wish i had one hot guy that i loved and loved me in return. i wish i could have a MEANINGFUL love life. not just a little fling here and there. let me put it to you this way.... i'm a twelve year old in seventh grade and i've hooked up woth TEN GUYS!!! i mean, for someone my age, i've hooked up with ALOT!!! and i mean, again, it's fun, but nothing that is really special and intamate.

today i met this one guy at the mall. i kinda met him once before. his name is gary and he's really cute. i met him once before and that was only for like ONE SECOND. and today we saw each other at the mall, started hugging alot, flirting, i sat on his lap, we pecked each other on the lips, he is now my quote on quote sex bitch (i have six new sex bitches that i got tonight), then later, we went outside the foodcourt and started hooking up. i mean, yeah... he's a wonderful kisser and i'd love to do it again, but i mean there's no meaning or passion behind them. it would be nice to have a real relationship with gary (even though i barly know him. like, if i got to know him) but, i just feel so... alone. you know what i mean?

[rOckThISshYt]

lol. they don't call me their sex bitch. they're my sex bitch. we're just messing. i've never had any sex with any of them, so they're really not my sex bitches. it's just funny. but i'm not necissarily looking for all true love, i'm just looking for someone who doesn't like me for what i'm willing to do or how i look. i mean, that might be one reason but i don't want it to be the reason. well, i guess it's kinda like my fault cuz i do rush things with guys and i'm never in the right place to meet guys who like me for me and not just my tongue or hips or thighs. you know?