bf broke up with me..., so confused.... Options

[lilnatcat]

my bf went overseas holiday for 1 month, and in that 1 month he never came online so we could'nt talk to each other... we had just passed valentines day, our 3 months and 100 days......

he came back last sunday, and broke up with me a few days ago on thursday.....

i asked him for a reason and he told me that "university's starting.... and i have to go to university monday to friday... i don't have any time" coz both of us are at different universities...... but we live really close to each other.....

i asked him if there was any way we could turn back and he just shook his head....
i was really shocked and didn't know what else to say or ask.... coz at that time i was trying my best to hold my tears back... i started sniffing a lot trying to hold those tears back.... he asked "r u ok? do u want me to walk u home?" he seemed to still really care about me....

On Friday, i went to his house to give back the sketchbook i borrowed off him, which i had drawn something in it and had a message in it.... the letter i wrote when he was overseas....... and the letter i wrote on the same friday morning


I asked him if he ever loved me, and he said that he did but the feeling's all gone.
I was really upset, I don't know if he's lying or not..... because would'nt he have told me that yesterday when i asked for the reason for the break up? It seemed so sudden when he said it to my face...... and his frd says that it doesn't seem like him to do such a thing like that

But what i'm so confused about it, when he told me that he had no feelings for me anymore the day AFTER we broke up was he lying? did something force him to make that choice? or was it for the sake of university that he decided to give up on me? he's a great guy, he's done so many sweet things, I always wanted to cry at the time he did each of those things but held it al back coz i didn't want to show him that i was actually fragile and sensitive on the inside. i always thought that i was a strong person on the inside and outside, but i guess......... on the inside its not strong at all........

I'm really upset..... eversince thursday, i've been crying a lot......... So many things remind me of him..........i can't help it but cry..... and i have to wait infront of the park he broke up with me for the bus to get to my university......for the next 4 yrs.............. the park is really close to both of our houses.....

I hope all of you can give me ur opinions and what u think................. i really appreciate it if u read all of this till the end and give me some advice.... because.... i consider him as my 1st bf eventhough he isn't.... what makes me say that is because he's the very very first guy i actually love.... and i do mean it... i've never felt so emotional and painful in my whole life before. I don't think I would ever know what love is if I never met him......

[Chii]

i believe that you deserve to know what his reasons were. ask him about EVERYTHING you want to know about, don't be afraid. if you keep those questions to yourself, it's not going to do any good. pick one day to do this. then whatever he says, accept it. if he continues to not give you a real answer then he can go f*ck himself for being such a coward.

after that, no more interrogating. throw all his sh*t away. if you broke up on good terms, it would be okay to keep it. but this guy is making you cry, making you miserable and leaving you in the dark about what went wrong. after all his crap is in the trash, try to move on. have some alone time and try to realize that he's not that great of a catch. what's the point of trying to be with someone who can't be truthful with you?

it's tough, but i think you should stop having faith in him coming back. you're hurting and he's not doing anything to help you. if he does come back then be careful and start new memories but if he doesn't come back then oh well, at least you were already prepared for that scenario.

i've been through something like this before. i really, really liked the guy but probably not as much as you like this guy and it hurt like a b*tch. you know, when it hurts so bad you can really feel the pain. but then i realized that he was a liar and got over it pretty quickly. he lied about so many stupid things but i was blind to because i liked him so much.

in my eyes, that guy doesn't deserve you! i remember the topic you made awhile ago about what to make your boyfriend. you put so much effort and thought to the gifts. if he can't appreciate that then he can't be the one for you. you are way too smart and sweet to be hurting over such an ass.