bf broke up with me..., so confused.... Options

[lilnatcat]

my bf went overseas holiday for 1 month, and in that 1 month he never came online so we could'nt talk to each other... we had just passed valentines day, our 3 months and 100 days......

he came back last sunday, and broke up with me a few days ago on thursday.....

i asked him for a reason and he told me that "university's starting.... and i have to go to university monday to friday... i don't have any time" coz both of us are at different universities...... but we live really close to each other.....

i asked him if there was any way we could turn back and he just shook his head....
i was really shocked and didn't know what else to say or ask.... coz at that time i was trying my best to hold my tears back... i started sniffing a lot trying to hold those tears back.... he asked "r u ok? do u want me to walk u home?" he seemed to still really care about me....

On Friday, i went to his house to give back the sketchbook i borrowed off him, which i had drawn something in it and had a message in it.... the letter i wrote when he was overseas....... and the letter i wrote on the same friday morning


I asked him if he ever loved me, and he said that he did but the feeling's all gone.
I was really upset, I don't know if he's lying or not..... because would'nt he have told me that yesterday when i asked for the reason for the break up? It seemed so sudden when he said it to my face...... and his frd says that it doesn't seem like him to do such a thing like that

But what i'm so confused about it, when he told me that he had no feelings for me anymore the day AFTER we broke up was he lying? did something force him to make that choice? or was it for the sake of university that he decided to give up on me? he's a great guy, he's done so many sweet things, I always wanted to cry at the time he did each of those things but held it al back coz i didn't want to show him that i was actually fragile and sensitive on the inside. i always thought that i was a strong person on the inside and outside, but i guess......... on the inside its not strong at all........

I'm really upset..... eversince thursday, i've been crying a lot......... So many things remind me of him..........i can't help it but cry..... and i have to wait infront of the park he broke up with me for the bus to get to my university......for the next 4 yrs.............. the park is really close to both of our houses.....

I hope all of you can give me ur opinions and what u think................. i really appreciate it if u read all of this till the end and give me some advice.... because.... i consider him as my 1st bf eventhough he isn't.... what makes me say that is because he's the very very first guy i actually love.... and i do mean it... i've never felt so emotional and painful in my whole life before. I don't think I would ever know what love is if I never met him......

[lit0chinagirl]

he probably still cares for you in some sort of way because most people still have some sort of feelings for a person at the moment that they break up with them. sometimes they won't because of many reasons-- probably distance in your case, another person, or maybe they just didn't care as much as they should but i do think that your ex did care for you. it really depends on how you guys did spend your time together. if you think that there was something real there then there probably was. it's perfectly normal for you to doubt what you had because you saw something that was so perfect per say which quickly shattered into pieces.

over time you'll learn to cherish the memories that the two of you shared instead of dreading it. i was just like you about lemme think six months ago i think? i thought i was strong too but for some reason i was just so overtaken by what happened at the end. don't be afraid to talk to any of your friends and family about how you feel or maybe writing down some of your thoughts. you can also try investing your time in other activities like hanging out with your friends and having laughs or take up a new interest? it'll help the healing process

who knows maybe one day he'll come back into your life or maybe he won't but i assure you that one day you'll be able to find a guy just as good as or even better than he was.

hope you feel better! it'll be awhile so don't expect it so soon.